I Surrendered

By Nandini Parmar

I surrendered

to the waters in which I drowned

I surrendered,

to the parasites sucking my blood out

And as the sugar rush kicked in

I could feel flowers blooming within

my body could feel a different kind of high

but my soul crushed in; asking why?

Why do i feel good by the waters pulling me in?

What crimes have i committed and what sins?

"You want to be loved,

you want to be cherished,

you feel abandoned

and numb

from the pain you're carrying

gained from the people you loved."

The waters talked to me

Embraced me in an alluring hug

I felt loved and free

from the blood ridden chains

Its nice to surrender sometimes

to cut yourselves from the world for a while

I surrendered,

to everything i loved

I surrendered,

to myself and to others

I surrendered,

to the life i was given.

By Nandini Parmar