अपनी तलाश में

By Sumedha Gupta

डूब जाऊँ  

समुद्र में  

उसके जो मुझे डुबाना चाहता है  

देखूँ उन गहराइयों को  

जो वो मुझे दिखाना चाहता है  

तैरूँ ग़म के दरिया में  

पी जाऊँ कुछ पानी उसका  

कब तक बचूँगी उन लहरों से  

ये दिल अब डूब जाना चाहता है  

क्या रखा है इस दुनिया में  

हो जाता है जो हो जाना होता है  

हम तो प्यादे हैं उसके शतरंज के  

पहुँच ही जाते हैं वहाँ  

जहाँ वो पहुँचाना चाहता है  

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बह जाऊँ  

हवाओं में  

उसकी जो मुझे बहाना चाहता है  

दुनिया का हर कोना देखूँ  

नदियाँ देखूँ  

ज़माना देखूँ  

हर ग़म, हर मुस्कान  

देखूँ हर दिल क्या चाहता है  

कहाँ है ठिकाना इसका  

ये आख़िर कहाँ जाना चाहता है  

क्या रखा है इस ज़माने में  

अगिनत दीवारों से  

हमें थामना चाहता है  

किस दीवार ने हवा को रोका?  

किस दीवार से समुद्र थमा है?  

नादान है वो जो बेड़ियों में  

इस दिल को बाँधना चाहता है  

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दिल भी प्रकृति के समान अनंत है  

इसे रोकना, बाँधना व्यर्थ है  

ख़ुद की तलाश में खोया इंसान ही  

जागृति की राह के निकट है  

तो उड़ जा  

बह जा  

डूब जा समुद्र में  

उसके जो तुझे डुबाना चाहता है  

कि गहराइयों में ही वो ख़ज़ाना छुपा है  

जिसे ऊँचाइयों पर ज़माना पाना चाहता है

apni talaash mein

Doob jaau

Samudra me

Uske jo mujhe dubana chahta hai

Dekhu un gehraiyon ko

Jo vo mujhe dikhana chahta hai

Tairun gham ke dariya me

Pee jau kuch paani uska

Kab tak bachungi un leheron se

Yeh dil ab doob jaana chahta hai

Kya rakha hai is duniya me

Ho jata hai jo ho jana hota hai

Hum to pyaade hai uske shatranj ke

Pohoch hi jaate hai vaha

Jaha vo pohochana chahta hai

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Beh jaau 

Hawaon me

Uski jo mujhe bahaana chahta hai

Duniya ka har kona dekhu

Nadiyan dekhu

Zamana dekhu

Har gham har muskaan

Dekhu har dil kya chahta hai

Kaha hai thikaana iska

Ye aakhir kaha jana chahta hai

Kya rakha hai is zamaane me

Anginat deewaron se 

Hume thamaana chahta hai

Kis deewar ne hawa ko roka?

Kis deewar se samudra thama hai?

Naadaan hai vo jo bediyon me 

Iss dil ko baandhna chahta hai

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Dil bhi prakriti ke samaan anant hai

Ise rokna, baandhna vyarth hai

Khud ki talaash me khoya insaan hi

Jaagruti ki raah ke nikat hai

Toh udd ja

Beh ja

Doob ja samudra me

Uske jo tujhe dubana chahta hai

Ke geheraiyon me hi vo khazana chupa hai

Jise uchaiyo par zamana paana chahta hai

Explanation of the Poem

The poem explores surrender, fate, self-discovery, and breaking free from limitations, using the metaphors of the ocean and the wind to illustrate a journey of realization.

First Section: Surrender to Depths

The poet expresses a willingness to drown in the ocean that tries to pull them in. But this is not just about giving up—it’s about embracing the depths, experiencing the pain, and seeing what lies beneath. They question how long they can resist the waves and acknowledge that their heart now wants to surrender to them. This could symbolize acceptance of suffering, emotions, or fate rather than fighting against them.

Second Section: Fate & Powerlessness

Here, the poet questions the significance of the world. Everything happens as it is meant to, and they compare life to a game of chess, where people are mere pawns, moving where they are destined to go. This suggests a feeling of helplessness in the grand scheme of things, where no one has real control over their journey.

Third Section: Embracing Movement & Exploration

A shift occurs—the poet no longer talks about drowning but instead about flowing with the wind. Instead of resisting, they now want to see the world, experience its joys and sorrows, and understand the desires of people's hearts. This is the start of an awakening, a curiosity to explore beyond suffering.

Fourth Section: Breaking Barriers

The poet challenges societal limitations. The world tries to bind people with countless walls, stopping them from moving forward. But just like the wind and the ocean can’t be stopped by walls, the poet realizes that the soul (heart) is boundless and cannot be contained. This is where defiance and realization take hold—they reject the restrictions imposed by the world.

Fifth Section: Enlightenment & Freedom

Here, the poet recognizes that the human heart is infinite, just like nature itself. Trying to control or suppress it is pointless. They state that only those who lose themselves in self-search come close to enlightenment (Jaagruti—awakening).

Thus, the final message is clear: Let go, flow, dive deep into experiences, and embrace the hidden treasures of life. What the world seeks in heights (success, ambition) is often found in the depths (self-awareness, inner wisdom).

This is not about defeat but about trusting the journey, letting go of resistance, and allowing yourself to fully experience life.

Surrender to the depths, flow with the wind, break the walls—true treasures lie not in heights, but in the depths we dare to explore.

By Sumedha Gupta