You've Stolen My Heart

By Tania Basak

I don't know whether it's love or not but I keep blinking at your text like a dope. I long for you. Are you hearing me out? Yes, we all know that there is no defination of love, there is no logic in love but trust me I really don't know why do I keep staring at your pictures unbashfully but this feeling is weird and you are lugging me towards you unmajestically...

Should I be calling you mr.daft-cow because sometimes you keep smiling like a nincompoop or should I be calling you plunderer cause you've stolen my heart?What? Tell me one thing why do you always beat around the bush when i say that I like you? Don't you understand that this cloddish girl only needs your time?

Seeing your picture everyday is getting a fucking habit, i emerged to imagine you in my favorite song, "Tum mile to mil gaye ye jaha".You know I am superzealously crazy about KK and when I told you"people don't like kk, can you believe? But then you said, "Not everyone has a good taste"and smiled.I don't know what happened to me but I started scribing my thoughts in my dairy before going to bed and when I said, "MY THOUGHTS", only your name comes to my mind since you errupted to deplete my cogitation bit by bit and guess what I am unable to leave them off.I often crash out while waiting for you to come online.I really want to talk to you every day and may be that is the reason I keep on sending you memes, photos on messenger so that I could start a conversation, so that I could spend a little more time with you as you know very well that I feel gleesome talking to you.

Sounds creepy, isn't so? But we all do strange things when we start liking someone endlessly and the same thing happened with me.Do you have any idea that you started edifying a special place in my heart stoopingly?I get stuck at times and think crazily, "Am I going to repeat the same mistake? Am I going to allow someone to trifle with my emotions? I try to clog myself but I fail everytime.Do you have any fucking idea that your one text can make my whole day? Yes it

makes me happy. Have you ever thought of it duffer?You know your smiling face keeps flashing up in front of me whenever I close my eyes, I really don't know how many times I stalk you profile, how many times I check your last seen on messenger, how many times I see your pictures, how many times I read your text. You won't believe but i've started saving your pictures, going through all our chats and listening to our voice notes.I am damn sure that you'll be chortling to hear that I started adoring you endlessly, ideating you in my dreams, i started reading those books which I never contemplated that I would. Can you imagine? You know whenever I upload my picture I always check your comment and that heart emoji, whenever I share any post or write-up, the first thing comes to my mind is "YOU". Yes, my eyes always seek for your attention and this is the truth which I can't deny.

I know you must be wondering how could anyone think like this? Yes, we haven't met in real life, we haven't talked over phone yet. "Would you mind if I send my write-up?" And you were like, "Yes, of course,"I still remember when you mentioned my name in a post for the first time and I was like, "Why has this guy mentioned me?" But the funny part was i also started mentioning your name and i don't know why?And from there we started to know each other. This is how we started talking, remember? I know these are an inexplicable and slapstick things to you but how would I make grok myself? How would I clasp myself from doing all these silly and stupid things? How would I stop reckoning about you? And will you please stop flocking in my dreams? Cause it's nagging, i am unable to concentrate on my work. No i mean what bliss do you get by ticking me off? The way you look into my eyes, it simply distracts me, i can see you everywhere. You know one of my friends once told me that when you really like someone you will start listening to their voice and I used to think that these are all balderdash, how could it be possible and laughed but guess what, those silly things started happening with me. I don't know how would I stop them. Its like, "Mind says no but heart says let's go with the flow". Yes, i started groping your presence, hearing your voice while texting.Remember when you told me about the universe and I was like, "Is it true?" I get extremely euphoric when you ask me, "So, how's it going?", the resplendence of my face increases thousand times more when you tag me.

Wait! are you really deeming that I have a crush on you? it's just an infatuation or i am trying to impress you by my writing? Really? No, it's not like that. There is a vibe which you give me, there is something which has been tugging me towards you from the very beginning. You think explicating my emotions for you is easy? No, it's difficult. Don't ask me, "When?","How?" and "Why?". I can't answer because there are some things which we only feel, which can't be understood, it happens stealthily.

By Tania Basak