You Muted Me

By Gargi Joshi

In the echos of your narcissistic sway 

My heart Shattered before any boy's play ,

 your actions, a poison seeping deep 

Affecting every  man in my life, they creep.

From grandfather gentle embrace 

to mentors who offered solace and grace, 

Even friends innocent in their role ,

Became tainted by your shadowed toll .

I've muted myself Pushed  away , 

From a world I once called my extended array 

you destroyed it all , peice by peice 

My traumatic past, a haunting fleece. 

Yet amidst the wreckage, a becacon shone bright 

Manav sir a father figure in the night.

His kind heart, a balin to my soul 

Listning for hours, making me whole.

But your , your fault to date ,

Made me doubt , made me hesitate 

If even my sources of support aren't safe,

Then Where do I turn,

 In this tumultous chafe?

Thoughts whirl doubts swirl.

Will speaking out disrupt our world ? 

 Yet my silence a prison, growing vast ,

As I grapple with the ghost of my past

For now I'm muted pushing away , 

haunted by trauma, day by day. 

Afraid to let anyone close for fear, 

Of once again being left alone here .

By Gargi Joshi