You Ask Me

By Siddhi Joshi

What do you think is worse?

Falling in love too deep or walking away before its too late even though you do not want to?

I would say it was realizing I had fallen too deep

I would say it was accepting I had fallen too deep

To realize that I was drowning

To realize that a part of me did not know how to float or maybe did not even want to

But I swam to the shore

What was the most difficult part?

It was to rise again that required the most strength

To stand up again only to fall again was what I feared the most

The possibility of drowning because I fell too deep again was what I feared the most

Falling was easy, effortless, and uncontrollable even when I knew it could end with me drowning

But still having to stand up each time only to eventually fall was what was most difficult.

As in the end I would rather fall too deep than swim in the shallow end.

By Siddhi Joshi