When they didn’t see me come back

By Mariyam hiba

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9QGbYIBLrM0

When my first year BDS ceased and the time when the second year BDS commenced, the first year result was an expected guest. There were so many assumptions on which date it could arrive and finally arrived on the day before a Celebration in our college in which juniors all agreed that we would come to decorate the campus the evening before. When we heard that the link appeared for the results to get published we all took our mobile phones and hesitantly clicked the link one by one. That's the only thing I remember. After that there was huge applause of laughter and die hard cries from some, when I peeped into my result, I got numb I was not able to believe that I failed hence it took me some time to cry on a shoulder to weep in disgust.

When the hostel started laughing again by those who cleared, I understood I can't stand there even for a while; I was sure that I would lose my control; I didn't look back and forth, I told my friend that I am going to college .When I reached there all my seniors where immensely engaged in works, my result must have been written on my face that without telling they could all predict. Some didn’t ask me anything, some consoled however it may be, I thought it helped me coming here. I thought I would join my seniors to help them lay the floral patterns on the ground .When the call for prayer was given in order to pray, I stood up. None of my seniors were there at that time. In order to go to the washroom upstairs .While performing ablution I heard my name is being called from somewhere but without giving my ear to it I continued .Then the voice began rising .The voice became clear, yes they were calling me out. I responded. At that time someone said to one someone, “yes she is responding” .I climb downstairs s nobody, when I turned left I saw the shadow of two people climbing down. They came searching for me I indicated by putting on my mobile flashlight that I am in the ground floor. “We saw you going a up but didn’t see come back so we thought ……”I knew what they were about to say I don't know what brought them up stair searching for me even if it was just for very small span of time of my absence. Is it because of love for me or the fear that I will commit something, I still don't know even if both are the reasons, I like to take it in its former sense.

By Mariyam hiba