What Should I Do?

By Arulalan Stany A

“Are you living or are you just existing?”, asked God. “What do you I think?”, replied I.

I am just there in this space, I let everything pass by. Nothing seems to be happening around me. It is here that I say; I just exist.

I wasted so much of my parent’s money, searching for a passion that I did not have and exploring the skills that I just don’t care. I am dependent on them for everything and in their good graces I survive, otherwise not. Their love is now, just a lump in my throat. It is here that I say; I just exist.

I had more glasses of drinks that I lost the count and this feeling of inability doesn’t seem to go away. I drench myself with never ending series and movies and still this sorrow seems to be there. It is here that I say; I just exist.

“You got to change it up a notch”, said God. I replied sarcastically, “you think”! It is not that I don’t want to change. Everyone around me seems to be better than me and my environment never seems to be ready for me.

“Well, what do you expect?”, said God. In life nothing is given to you on a silver platter, except time and guidance. You use every opportunity that comes your way. You put your hard work and your smart work in all your endeavours. You strive hard and fight for what you want. You fail, you fall, whatever; just know that you have to get up and do it again. Now, stop existing and start living. So Get up!

“Get up will you!”, said Ma, with a love filled anger. You have an interview to crack and a job to succeed. “Get up!”, she said

By Arulalan Stany A