War of Mind

By Joel Doni Chirappurathu

The moon leaves the night

The stars fade away 

I see the sun at the crack of dawn

Is this a new day?

Or is this another field

To wage war against pain

To curse the dreaded drought

In wait for the rain

If only I had the strength

To get up from this puddle of tears,

The sun will rise with pride

While I cower in fear

But how long do I sit

And mourn my will’s death,

How long do I dig the grave

For my own last breath

My sword lies before me,

My body awaits my call

When do I grab the hilt

How much longer do I stall

“Time doesn’t last forever friend”

My soul says to me

“How long will you cage me in guilt?

When will you let me be free?”

Enough, I’ve had it

I’ve had it with my lies

I am worth more than the things I call myself

I will teach myself to fly

Regret has ruled long enough

It’s turned a free bird to stone

My mind will remain mine alone

No longer pity’s throne

Fruitless it is to punish myself

For deeds all done by me

I cannot open a closed door,

When I’ve locked up the only key

So let me pick up my blade

And own the words I say

Yes, this is a new duel with life

But it is also a beautiful day

By Joel Doni Chirappurathu