Unrequited Average Love

By Aruneshwar PM

~ To those who feel dejected our love but still wants to explore it~

[NARRATION: Sitting in the bench seeing through fences an empty ground while sun going down surrounded by different kinds of people. Some are grieving with their friends some are enjoying to their hearts contempt some are worried, there also exist some others who are sitting in a bench zoning out finding it difficult to decide whether to grieve or to smile or to worry.]

You guys must be wondering about what’s going on right, it’s just a guy rambling over his three years of average life so whether it is an interesting one or a dramatic one I don’t know but what I know that this a different story which has plenty of plot that is worth reading till the end.

This story starts some where around the end of July, a faint sound is heard continuously as it gets louder and clear it looks like a voice trying to call someone,” hey Hey HEy HEY arjun wake up c’mon get up”, then slowly getting up sees an entrance passing through then comes to realization that they have come to a college, dad” did you sleep well, see now we have arrived to your college the place you are going to spent for the next three years”.

Ignoring him by seeing the college through the car window, the car stops before a worn-down building. Dad” c’mon get your luggage’s”, an old man approached us asking” are you first years which department do you belong “it seemed like he is the attender of this worn-down hostel.” I year BCA” I replied, the old attender “room no 315 on the third floor the room near the staircase” the room was small and there seems to be luggage already being placed in the room, dad” it seems that you are going to share this room with two other guys”, after unloading the luggage we went the ID card registration to a place called multipurpose hall.

It looked like four storey building; we went to the second floor for the first year ID registration. As we entered it was a huge auditorium in every nook and cranny a professor belonging to different departments sat there registering the student that belong to the corresponding department. There was a huge crowd so we waited near the door till the number goes down. As the sun started to set the sky started to turn pink and the cloud formation looked beautiful. I went down to capture the moment; I ran toward the football ground to take a clear shot of the sky. When I looked into the picture, in the right half of the picture was blur only half the picture were clear at that moment when I heard a sweet voice that immediately pulled towards it and that was the first time, I saw her.

She looked like a cotton doll that has eyes, nose, and lips embedded in them. It seems like she also came to take snap of the sky also didn’t get the picture right. Even the disappointed look on her face looked so beautiful that it was other worldly, my chest started to heat up more like a warmness rather than burning a slight pain but was pleasure. Our eyes made contact and unknowingly looked away I exclaimed “WHY!” she was walking away and I was like” go and approach her” but there seems to be some unknown fear swelling up, as soon as I mustered up my bravery, she was long gone in disappointment I went back for registration.

We searched for BCA department professors and finished my registration. Later, me and my dad had a sightseeing of the college discussing about how to conduct myself in the next three years.

After dad left I returned to my room, there were three other guys. As soon I entered the room those guys started to laugh I was puzzled then a dark brown fat guy introduced himself as Abu, Followed by a specs wearing tonsured guys Called Harari and a tall bulky guy selvan. [Bell rings]It seems like a dinner Bell so we then went to have dinner at the mess hall and came back to room. When all of us reached the room we discussed about ourselves and our background then due to my curiosity I asked them” why did you guys laugh at me when I entered “then Abu answered “we were guessing your appearance with your luggage and our guessing came true”.

After that night I got to know a lot about those guys that Abu is a calocial guy with fun atmosphere around him try to roast everyone around him, Harari is pervert with quite a big brain and selvan is highly extrovert with ambitious attitude with this type of guys with me I was excited to have my next three year spend with them. Then the journey slowly started in our first year was not much exciting but was actually like a trials round for the upcoming semester but our room had total fun.

In first year, we got to know about all the exciting thing that would happen the college such as sports day which each hostel would participate and fight for the best hostel cup. Then is the traditional day which the moat anticipated day where we would wear traditional dress in groups to show our unity and show off to our whole college that whose gang is the bigshot and there are also some notable events such as department function Were each department would be celebrating by having buffet and symposium where we could go to other colleges to participate in events to bring back trophies for our college. Another prominent thing that was noticeable thing was around two-third of the college was engaged in dating or getting committed. As such all of us made a promise that we would get committed at least before the end of year.

So our aim was at the commerce department as they had the most beautiful girls in the college but the problem was the idea which we had not only popped to us but came to most of the second years as well. So it was a tough competition as there were only around 20 section with each section holding twenty-five to thirty girls this was actually a brutal fight between us boys to impress girls these girls we tried to fit in any of the events which would help us make a name but unfortunately we didn’t poses any such skills.

As the days pass a new subject was added into our syllabus called NMEC(non major elective course). Which lets you choose a subject apart from your major due to late submission I got into to French class. [I never knew the language of love would reunite my love one again ]yes I met her again I still can’t forget the day still now. Everyone was bored after a long day the last period of the day a sudden announcement for students move to their corresponding NMEC classes. Me and my buddies were in search of French department for enquiry for the classes as soon as found the class I bumped into her as she was introducing herself we entered into the class.

That when I got to know her name, Dhanya and shocking she was also from commerce department, now I was fired up so much that I was having several action films fighting to get her from each and every kind of villain in mind. From that day onwards I was eagerly waiting for NMEC classes that day onwards just to be able to spend forty minutes in a same class was utterly breathe taking for me but that didn’t last long as my most loyal helping precious friends of mind felt something is wrong with me and found the cause. [Mindvoice:Few lessons if you are either fall in love or going to fall in love: rule no1 never share something about love to others.]

But this rule I didn’t follow so it got spread like wildfire so much that our ever so friendly French prof even came to me and asked about my relationship life. So I thought to propose her for the upcoming valentine’s day, there was a problem that I didn’t have any female friend my whole life so I have very very poor conversation building towards the opposite gender. In a fear of rejection I went in search of advise another bad move.[mind voice: Ruleno.2 never search ways for love and it’s unique for everyone.]

I tried to get from every committed guy, each and everyone gave me lots of advise After hearing those kind of advise I lost most of the confident and self esteem. Then I started to have makeover of my self so that she would like me about my appearance. Slowly grew a long hair changed dressings looks changed from Choco boy to rugged boy. Even I was fascinated over my transformation later through a long preparation I was ready. So the plan was to call her for a minute tell her how I feel about her and wait for the results but what happened there was completely different.

As I was waiting near her scooty she came I approached her like “excuse me hey dhanya ”Then she was like stopped for moment, then I continued “ hello” then everything got shut down as in was not able to speak anything while making eye contact with her and forgot the lines and asked her “do you remember me” and she replied “hmm sorry I don’t have any recollection “ that answer literally broke me into million of pieces as she doesn’t even know who I was That brought my self esteem to level that no one could reach. After I slowly explained who I was she exclaimed in apologetic manner. Then I continued how I feel about her then she replied that she was an introvert and she properly doesn’t know me so she rejected me. She took her scooty and drove of as I just stood there didn’t know what to do as I felt a void in my chest.

It was truly Painful I had the same heating sensation but this time It was not pleasure ful this was throbbing in pain as much as I would cry. At the exact same moment my friend came to help me out, for few days I roaming here and there listening to songs trying to forget her and move on. Then this sudden friend of mine changed my life, pranav this guy flipped my life like chapatti in pan. He was the love guru of our gang and started to help me get her he told me that “ good girls are always hard to come only bad ones fall easily” he added that” she doesn’t even know you so it’s appropriate to a girl to reject an unknown guy so just impress her then go for it and I have friends in her class so it’s easy to know about her more”.

He gave me a hope to never give up and stand to try again. In the final year my task was to get her to accept my love With the help of pranav’s friend we were able to get know more about her so, first to let her know my presence I started to put chocolate in her scooty every day to make her curious about me. Next was achievement that could let me make a name due god’s grace two such opportunities came to me one was international paper presentation and another one was placement, with immense hard work I was able to participate in international paper presentation and did a good job.

Then with the help of that I got placed as well while this was happening I participated in sports to win some medals to gain some fame in college as well as joined our BCA gang in traditional day resulting in Letting my name reach to her. Then this time everything was set I had made a name in college, I have achieved, changed my looks and also got placed. I have immense confidence in me but exam time came so I thought to once again propose her on the final day of the college.

After long battle with those exams the most eagerly waited day came once again I went to her told a cheese line and proposed to her the result was unexpected.

[Back to present]

Sitting in the bench carrying the luggage viewing the sunset waiting for my dad to arrive. As time moves on everyone left, dad approached from me what’s up why are you sulking over here” then I told him the whole story he patted only shoulders and told me” life is long” I interpreted him” please don’t in am feed up With advises” dad was like” fine ok just listen I know it’s painful when you share with other they might mock you sometime tease you should take to your mind” I looked at him as he continued “even though you loved her genuinely she didn’t reciprocate so don’t feel dejected that you are ugly, or you don’t have skill or you are just average. That not it if you were one you would have not achieved you would not have placed and many more so, don’t be sad move on with life get matured and grow that the lesson you could get from this part of life. If you were really destined there is no need to search for her she would automatically approach you.

After hearing those words the void in my heart was once again back to normal. I left the college with lots of memories with friends, passion, work and love obviously unrequited but this three was the biggest lesson in my life and I am thankful for this unrequited average love

By Aruneshwar PM