True love stories never have endings

By Rohit Kumar Pandey

15 se 20 sal ki age aise rhti hai ki jisme aap apni life ki buniyad bana skte ho or bigad sakte ho aisa log kahte hai , or hum logo ki sabse badi pareshani bhi sayad yahi hai log kya bolenge usi se hamara present or future decide hota hai . par ye 15 se 20 saal ki age me bahut kuchh aisa hota hai joki hamari puri life change kr skti hai , ye age aisa hai ki apne dimag bahut si udhedbun me lga rhta hai , kuch log apne academic me busy rahte hai ,kuchh log sports me ,basically har koi apni zindagi ki niv ko majbuti dene me lage hote hai ,or fir aate hai mere jaise log joki insab chijo ki bina parwah kiye apni zindagi jine me lage hote hai ek dum mast maula insan jo hoga dekh lenge waise type wale pr jo hota hai ya jo ho raha hota hai wo dekha nahi jata ,har pal usko badalne ki aas lekar chalte hai. isi age me logon ko pahli bar pyar ka ehsas bhi hota hai , pyar ka ehsas hi sayad alag hota hai ,isliye bhagwan shri krishna bhi baal awastha me khud ko pyar krne se rok nahi paye . aise hi ek pyar ki kahani mai kahna chahta hun jisme khub pyar bhi hai ,ladai bhi hai ,jimmedari ka bhi ehsas hai , apne haq k liye kaise ladai krna chahiye , khud ki khusi ka tyag karke apne parents ki zid kaise man ni padti hai , or zindagi jine ki umeed bhi nahi chhodne ki himmat bhi rakhni padti hai .

Aathvi ki padhai puri krne ke bad uske parents ne use aage ki padhai k liye sahar le gye par use utni khusi thi nahin , gaon chhodne ka afsos bhi tha or ek abhiman bhi . par uska man bilkul bhi nai lagta tha kyoki maa ke bina rehna pad rha tha or is se phle maa ke bina kabhi raha bhi nahin tha , or padhai me to bilkul bhi man nahi lagta tha isliye uske marks bhi kam hi aate the bt jaise taishe karke 12th pass kr hi liya par uski kahani ki suruwat dasvi me hui jb usne apne ek ristedar ki shadi me us ladki se mila or bas dekhta hi reh gaya baat krne ki himmat hi nahin ,confidence bilkul low , or bat ho nahi payi fir sadi ke bad jab wapas mulakat hui to thodi himmat karke bat kiya pr use samjh me na aaye ki baat kya karen kaise suruwat kiya jaye par jaise taishe krke baat suru ho gai , ek dusre ko jan ne lage ek dusre ke parents k no. bhi share ho gye kyoki us time pe ghar me muskil se ek phone hota tha to personal ki baat bahut dur thi . dhire dhire batein aage badhne lagin or ek dusre se pyar krne lage , mulakatein bahut kam hoti thi kyoki wo log alag alag sahar me rhate the pr batein bahut hoti thi milne ka vaada bhi hota tha or occasionally mulakat bhi hoti rahi . sab kuch achi chal rahi thi ,din achhe ja rahe the . pyar ki shuruaat me jaise log thode sayar bhi hone lagte hai to usne bhi uske liye kuchh likha jo kuchh is prakar hai :

तू मेरे लिए जैसे जाड़े की धूप है ,

मेरे हृदय में तो तेरा ही स्वरूप है ,

तू जैसे शीतल चांदनी रात है ,

तेरे होने से हर पल मीठी बरसात है ,

तू जैसे बसंत की परिभाषा है ,

खिलती हुई कलिंयो की न्याषा हैं ,

तू तपती दोपहरी में बरगद की छांव जैसी ,

हरे लहलहाते पेड़ों और खेतों से भरे मेरे गांव जैसी ,

तू पीले सरसो की फूलों से भरे बाग जैसी ,

तेरी मधुर वाणी लगे तानसेन की राग जैसी ,

तू बादलों के बीच सूरज की किरण जैसी ,

तू वन में तृष्णा से भरे हिरण जैसी ।

Kudrat ka bhi khel nirala rahta hai isliye sayad jab wo use apne sahar aakr rahne k liye bolta tha tab wo aa nahi pati jabki uske papa usi sahar me job karte the to uske liye utni mushkil to nahi thi but uske parents bahut hi strict the to usko utni freedom nahi milti thi fir bhi wo dono kaise bhi karke ek dusre k liye time nikal hi lete the . jb wo apne sahar chodkar dusre shahar me graduation k liye gaya to wo ladki uske apne 12th ki padhai puri uske sahar me rahne ko gai , isi ka karan unlogo ki ladai ho jati hai or unki breakup bhi ho jati hai lekin sayad wo casual thi to dono ko kuchh khas affect nahi pada pr dono ek dusre ki respect karte the or pyar krte the ,sayad isliye dono ne ek dusre ke decision ko accept ko kiya or aage badh gye .

3 saal beet gaye the ladke ne apni graduation puri karli or uske marks bhi achhe aaye . tabhi duniya me sabse bada sankat aaya covid19 ,puri duniya band pad gyi ,sb apne apne apne gahr me band ho gye . zindagi jaise train ki bogi si ban gyi thi ,khayo toilet jao or apne birth pe aake let jao ,lgatar ek jagah band rahne se dimag bhi sankuchit hone lga tha ,padhai karne ko bhi dil nahi karta bas us time pe jeene ke do hi raste the ek online ludo, or social media jaise instagram , facebook pe log jyada apna time spend karne lage the , aise hi ek din insta scroll krte krte ladke ko us ladki ka suggestion aaya to ladke ne mess kr diya or reply bhi aa gya ,sayad ladki ne bhi search kiya hoga .bat fir se start ho gai ,apologies hui or fir se dono relationship me aa gye ,aisa lagta tha jaise dono ek dusre k liye hi bane the ,dono lagte bhi sath me bahut acche the , umra ke sath sath dono ki relationship me kafi maturity dikhti thi dono ek dusre ko support krte the ,bure decision me advice dete the openly constructive criticism bhi hoti thi .

But sayad kudrat ne unke liye kuch or hi plan karke rakhe hue the , time covid ki second wave ki hai covid 19 se india me bahut deadth ho rahi thi , ladke ne bhi apni badi nani maa ko kho diya jinse wo bahut jyada close tha tabhi us ladki ne bataya ki uske parents uske liye ladke dekh rhe hai or uski shadi karne wale hai ,ye bahut hi deepress karne wali cheez thi dono ke liye , ladke ne himmat rakhi or samjhaya ki tum apne parents se baat karo or ek dusre k bare me bata do , or thoda time de hame ,ladki ne direct apne parents se bat karne se dar rahi thi isliye usne apni elder sister se ko batyi ,unhone bola ki baat karenge aur kya bhi pr uske parents ne ek na suni ,kisi ki bhi baat na suni ,ladki ne apni life k liye literally gidgidayi ,apne parents ke samne royi ,bimar pad gayi pr uski ek na suni gyi . idhar ladke ka bhi halat thik nahi rahne lagi ,na use padhai me man lagti , nahi kisi se sahi se baat kar pata tha ,apne parents se bhi thik se baat nahi kar pata ,apne man ki man me dabaye rahta tha ,akela rahne lga ,jab wo apne dil ki baat kisi se nahi kar pata to likhne lagta ,undono ne bahut kosis kiya ki kisi tarah uske parents man jaye par undodno ki ek na chali, ladke ki baat ko bol kar taal diya jata tha tu abhi kuchh kaam nahi kaise sambhalega ,kaise chalayega . jis se wo kuchh bol nahi pa raha tha bilkul bhi use chup kara diya jata , ladki ke man bas yahi baat rhti thi bas kisi tarah se ladki ko kuch time mil jaye kyuki jab uski shadi ki baat chal rahi thi to wo sirf 20 sal ki thi ,or 20 sal sadi karne ki hoti nahi hai ye waqt hota apne zindagi jine ,sapne dekhne ka ,duniya ghumne ka ,padhai puri karne ka ,pr uske parents ka logic tha jitni jaldi ho sakti thi sabki sadi ho jani chahiye kyuki unki death ke baad us ki jimmedari kaun lega.

Undono ne bahut kosis kiya par baat nahi ban paya . ladki ki shadi ho gyi ,ladke ki halat bilkul bhi kharab uski parents se bhi ladai ho gyi or usne ek decide kiya suicide karne ka or apne ghar ki chhat pe gya or wha se chhallang marne ka socha pr mar nahi paya , uske man ye chalne lga ki ye uski ki zindagi ki ant nahi ho sakti hai , or agr ant aisa likha hai to ye uski zindagi hi nahi fir , or usne nahi kiya or usne fir kuchh panktiya likhi :

मेरी हर एक कदम पे थी जीवन सी खाई ,

सबके साथ होते हुए भी थी तन्हाई ,

तुझसे दूर भी ना जा पाया हर ओर तो थी तेरी ही

परछाई ,

ज़िन्दगी तो कभी अपनी थी ही नहीं ,

मौत ने भी मुझे कहां अपनाई ।

In sab ke bawajood bhi ladke ki kisi se nahi ban ne lagi ,kisi se wo dhang se baat nahi kar pata ,uske dost pichhe chhutne lge , ladaiya hone lagi ,sab ke sab us se dur hone lage , us time pe uska ek hi sahara tha uski poem jis se wo khud ko motivate rakhta tha :

हारा हूं बेशक मै पर टूटा नहीं हूं ,

अपने दूर होते गए पर साथ छूटा नहीं है ,

माना की वक़्त अभी मेरा नहीं पर रूठा नहीं है ,

आएगा वो वक़्त मेरा भी ,

मां की दुआ है मेरे साथ वो तो झूठा नहीं है ।

Mere liye is chhoti si kahani kehna bahut important thi har us ladki k liye jinki kam umra me hi shadi ho jati ho ek tarah se baal vivah ka shikar ho jati ki apne haq ke liye ladna sikho , apni khushiyon ke liye agar apno se ladai karni padi to karo , Shrimad Bhagwat Gita me bhi shree krishna kahte bhagwan unki hi madad karte hai jo pahle khud ke liye ladna sikhe .

Or un parents k liye bhi kahna chahta hun betiyaan kabhi apne parents k liye bojh nahi ho sakti ,jo betiyaan apne bachche ko kokh me 9 mahine rakh sakti hai wo apni life ki decision khud le sakti hai , ek baar unpe bharosa karke ke dekho .

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By Rohit Kumar Pandey