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By Quinn Hamm

I put on 12 pain patches, if this doesn’t cure me, nothing will. Someone steal my organs. I have pelvic pain again. Guess who’s nearly hypothermic by just existing. I'm dying once again after a shower. But with only one symptom : Knee pain. I have to pee, but I’m so tired that the walls are moving. I'm so desperate to get my heart down that I put Salt in my water. I don’t even taste it. Someone wanna trade Bodies? I have a high heart rate (120) from sitting, and I can't breathe. I’m now laying down with three pillows to elevate my legs. May not be at School again tomorrow, OT is very worried about my symptoms, so I have to cut back a lot of activities. Brain fog hit, I just tried to brush my teeth, in the middle of the day because I thought it was bedtime. I can’t sit or stand without shaking, nor can I tense my muscles without shaking. I am dying. Yes it hurts. No, I’m not gonna see a doctor or go to the hospital. I have a fever, my joints hurt, I'm nauseous and worst of all, I want a hug. Can't even move to Pull another blanket on me Or plug in my phone (charger is beside me). Who wants to trade bodies?. I would like to see if I have a fever, but it hurts to move. My heart rate is being stupid ever since I showered Last night. Guess I'm flaring up. slept with a weighted blanket for the first time in a long while. I've now woke up in very much a lot of pain. Me laying down for 30 minutes waiting for my heart rate to drop below 100. It's finally below 100, but I need to stand up now and brush my teeth. My heart is being weird again. Y’all, I’m laying on the floor for the next 10 minutes cause my heart rate is too high because I’m so anxious. Who wants to trade hips with me? mine are KILLING me. #strugglingtobreathe, even though I took my puffer two separate times Within an hour. May go to hospital. I’ll be at school tomorrow, unless I’m more unstable on my feet, in which case I will be going to the ER. I will let anyone steal all my organs for the low low price of free. I’m having acid reflux. the universe hates me. This may be TMI, but I am bleeding profusely with quite large clots. I think I have a fever. I am very cold but hot to touch. Anyway, my heart rate is 102, and I’m laying down. I’ve been laying down for a good while now. Bro, it’s nearly been an hour and My heart is still the same. My temperature is also really low. I'm shaky and dying. Breathing is hard. My heart rate is really high right now (150) from standing. I may not go to school. I’ve been up with very bad leg and knee pain. The pain patches I put on didn’t help, so I am just now taking muscle relaxants. I am experiencing very bad nausea and stomach discomfort with the very normal and fun pelvic pain. I nearly threw up from drinking water earlier. My tummy is delicate today. My eyes are a bit blurry and hard to focus. I'm crashing hard. Brain is filled with fog. I know it’s dinner, I’m just really tired right now. Can't move without shaking.

By Quinn Hamm