Sermons From My Scars

By Alee Chery

Is God real?

I can’t answer that question for you

But can I tell  you about God in my story

My life don’t match the way  I look

They call me pretty

Don’t assume I had it easy

My God My God

Why have you forsaken me?

Suicidal thoughts from the inner me

Was my worst  enemy

Because those thoughts weren’t from me

But God never left me

For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, 

but against principalities, against powers, 

against the rulers of the darkness of this world, 

against spiritual wickedness in high places.

Meaning spiritual world is just  real as the physical one

Demons wanted my life to end

When God wanted my purpose to begin

So I speak soul in sermons

So this poem might save a life

I wanted to be an actor

Craig, it’ll stimulate your mind

But God called me to be pastor

Smoking weed everytime i was stressed

Just a band aid for my soul wounds

Asking tarot  and the universe for answers

But all it did was slow my steps

The Response was 

Demons attacking me in my sleep

Delaying my destiny for progress

Heavy pain sat on my chest 

Psalms 23 sweetly from my  breath

God restoring my soul 

Only the Holy Spirit is where I manifest

Laying my burdens at his feet for rest

Even when my heart was bleeding

And those that meant the world to me left

Wounded spiritually in my heart

Wounded physically in  my foot

When my world was falling apart

I couldn’t work,  in my deepest despair

God’s miracle 

$15 thousand hit in my account out of nowhere

When i was broken

God restored

When I was In darkness

God was the light

When i was depressed

God healed

I’ve seen too many miracles

Experienced God’s hand on my life

Attended services where the sick were healed

Sp My soul spoke turning my scars into sermons

So Is God real?

I can’t answer that question for you

But in my story God is real for me

By Alee Chery