Not My Story To Tell!

By Varshini A

I know this isn’t my place to talk; It isn’t my job to judge; It isn’t my story to tell! But, I can’t resist having a little fun, a much little understanding, and a few love synopsis to spill. And here it goes, the story of two friends… lovers… Uhmm, will come to a conclusion at the end of the relationship commentary and I’m Adya!

The feel when you see two of your friends bonding so well with your presence is bliss. But, you found out that they are so very well without your presence is a little misery. All you can do is just sit around and expect either of them to tell you what the hell is going on between them. And allow me to introduce you to my hell friends Advik and Ridhi.

My friendship with Ridhi goes a long way back. We studied in college together and it is been like, 7 years since I know her. Advik came into my life recently and he is working with Ridhi and they’ve known each other for 2 years. It goes without saying that every one of us is constantly searching for a way to escape this life routine that we chose yet most complained and criticized. The trip was one such escapism for us. Truth be told, that was one of the worst trip plans I’ve ever heard of and I don’t want to be the one to jinx that. So I nodded along and we were accompanied by 3 of our other friends.

When you went out as a gang we couldn’t help but notice some things and expect some things, right? When I was first introduced to Advik there was no introduction needed. He already had known every bit of mine and his first words to me were “Hi Adya!” and I kinda liked that. We started our journey! Amongst the 3 other friends, 2 were a couple and the other was my cousin. And my cousin was supposed to join us near our destination. So, we gave the 2 separate seats to the couples and we 3 sat together.

We talked a lot, laughed our hearts out, and made fun of each other. Whenever I was talking Advik’s full concentration was on me. He looked straight into my eyes as I was articulating my emotions. It reached a point where his gazes gave me tickles. And to say, I could sense a rush of jealous on Ridhi’s face too!

I remember asking them whether they are interested in each other and their instant answer was no, “We’re just friends!” And when we reached the trip’s spot my cousin joined us and we 4 had a great time. We talked, shared our life’s journeys, shed a few tears for others, empathised with them, traveled along with them and most importantly we felt each other’s vibe and it felt so real. It’s been a long since I let some one see the real me without any filters and Advik made it happen for me. The so called soft corner or I would say that I felt it would be so pleasant to have such person in my life!

On our way back, we traveled the same way. I was sitting near the window with Ridhi near me and Advik near her. I slept leaning against the window as the last night we never had time to close our eyes even for a bit. And when I woke up I saw Ridhi holding Advik forehead as he fell asleep on her shoulders. With the motion of the vehicle he kept falling and she sat there nearly like 3 hours balancing his head so that he could sleep.

What would you think if you were at my position? I understand that it is the care. But, I couldn’t deny the fact I sensed a little something above friendship. And whenever the 4 for us had a call over or texted in group I always sensed that they would have a separate connect running between them. She used to complete sentences for him. He used to tell all the correct answers for her. The way they their showed and carried their love and care for each other made me jealous. I also longed for a relationship like that and I’m happy that both my friends are sharing such a bond. But, I felt bad for myself, for not deserving that kinda love. I should never forget to mention this that both of them never failed to have my back at all circumstances and I’m indeed lucky to have them!

After a month gap we’d another plan. The 4 for us stayed together and it was a beautiful experience! My cousin and myself reached the hotel before them and when I saw them entering the hotel, he treated her like her queen. As her wish was his command. I know this may sound so fantacised! But, I saw it happening!

I don’t find the need to assess their feelings for each other. What I saw between them was beyond that. You know, they were emotionally invested in each other. Not with words or physical touch… With emotions, with feelings, with love! I really don’t get it why they are refusing their feelings for each other. So I sat them down that night and asked both of them.

Adya: “Why are you guys not together?”

Advik and Ridhi: “What do you mean?”

Adya: “You know very well, what I mean. Tell me why?”

Advik: “You know what, when I first saw you, I was lost in your eyes. I felt so mesmerized with them. They emote when you talk and I adored that. I wanted to be with you! But, I know that ani’t going to happen and I don’t feel sorry for that. I’m happy the way they are. The same goes for us too. Ridhi and I can never be together.”

Ridhi: “Adya, I know you have a little crush on Advik. So do I. You know that you two can’t be together and you’re ready to move past on that. The same, I know we can’t be together. But, we’re finding a way to move past like you did. Sometimes, life is designed that way. You can’t do much about it!”

Adya: “Guys, it is the matter of effort that you’re willing to put in. If you both wanted to make this work, you could find a way. If not, drop it right here and be the good friends you were. This platonic one is gonna ruin yourselves and others. By the way, I might be a little envious of what the two of you have. But, I really wish to see you having a happily ever after. And I know it’s not my decision to make!”

By Varshini A