Love Me?

By Rashmi Dhongade

I wish you could hug me, breathe me, and live... me.

You might wonder why I have chronic obsessive behaviour.

But rest assured, I hurt no fly.

But I wish they would know that I am just a mortal who loves deeply, with no regrets.

And because I am only a mortal, I can't promise you the universe, but every piece of me, every living cell inside my body, will respire for you.

I wouldn't mind you leaving... leaving imprints of you on my hips, and hope you won't mind me cresenting your torso.

And I wouldn't mind you slowly unveiling my battle scars... the way you like to call them, and I hope you don't mind me weighing down on your chest.

And in the middle of the night, you would simply whisper nameless ballads to me.

And if someday we part...

If you were to love someone else, I hope you would love her as much as I loved you.

I hope in some alternate world we would be together where the time moves back so I could play you back like a happy movie.

And maybe someday I would be chosen over ifs and buts cause I am everything I don't wanna be. I learnt to love everything that I am, a mess? a fool? everything.

And I will love you till my blood runs cold and my fingers turn pale.

But I want you to know that no one would ever love you as much as I could with my existence.

They say to experience a love of an artist, and they will keep you alive for centuries.

I will keep you alive for a millennial, in every speck of dot that exists beyond this pitiful existence of the earth.

And if someone could love me as much as I loved you, I am sorry, but I am only human. I would surrender to him.

It took me years to realize that loving someone and being loved by someone are experienced differently.

All my life I have loved with all of me, and if someday someone loves me the exact same way, I know I would never defy what came my way. As much human as I am, I want to be loved.

By Rashmi Dhongade