Look Me In The Eyes

By Husain Hebatullah

Look me in the eyes, tell me what you see

Espy through my fight & touch my bravery

I am not afraid for being vanquished or to lose,

But losing my own self is not what I can choose

I am not afraid of crawling ahead into the dark,

I just fear you won’t be able to trace my remark

I am not afraid of the empty rooms where I sit & sleep,

I just fear the emptiness in me that makes it all so creep

I am not afraid of staying alone, working by myself,

I just fear the loneliness hiding behind my bookshelf

I am not afraid of new beginnings with unusual episodes,

I just fear if I can apprehend its non-literal codes

I am not afraid of speaking In public page after page,

I just fear if I will miss you there on the stage

I am not afraid of playing with these office accessories,

I just fear being nostalgic if I catch one of our memories

Oh yes! It is brave enough to cry alone under the pillows,

But its scary to find no-one near you at your lows

New programmes & practices & patterns & routine,

My world is moving, only, where have you been!

When I said I am good & things are just fine,

What if I say I lied? What if I recline?

I do miss you around the clock, so what if I’m strong,

I need you in my fears, in my heart you always belong

So look me in the eyes, tell me what you see

Espy through my fight cuz you’re my family!

By Husain Hebatullah