Living In Your Memories

By Rimsha Shaikh

I wake up

Wake up everyday

And feel a void

The void of your missing presence

It fills me up to my rim

A once happy memory is now grim

Just one day

Is all I need

To capture each thing about you

That I never believed.

To fill my memory with

Everything that we could never see

That we could never be

It fills me up to my rim

A once happy memory is now grim

Wishing each day

For you to pass by

In my now glum life

You have left me by

It fills me up to my rim

A once happy memory is now grim

Living each day

In your memories

Happy, sad, joy, anger

Rewind everything I can

The memories I remember

And the ones I don’t

By looking at our pictures and videos

It fills me up to my rim

A once happy memory is now grim

Reminiscing every word

You ever said

Every feeling you ever felt

An emotion rises inside me

I don’t know what

It fills me up to my rim

A once happy memory is now grim

You promised

A promise you never fulfilled

That you would be there

Be there forever

Let alone forever

You are now with me never

It fills me up to my rim

A once happy memory is now grim

I beg each day

To God to bring you back

But he never listens

I wonder why

Why leave me alone

Why take you away from me

It fills me up to my rim

A once happy memory is now grim

Anxiously waiting for you

To at least come I my dreams

Waiting

Waiting

Waiting forever

Just like my last few birthdays

You never came

Never came to see me cry

Whispering to myself

To be as quiet as I can

It fills me up to my rim

A once happy memory is now grim

There are people who try

Try to replace you

But little do they know

They never can and never could

Why aren’t you here anymore

To protect me from my demons

Here I am battling all alone

From the people I love and know

It fills me up to my rim

A once happy memory is now grim

Anxiously waiting for you

To at least come I my dreams

Waiting

Waiting

Waiting forever

Just like my last few birthdays

You never came

Never came to see me cry

Whispering to myself

To be as quiet as I can

It fills me up to my rim

A once happy memory is now grim

Years ago, you told me

“Princess, don’t cry”

But here I am

Sobbing my heart out

But still have tears left by

I don’t want to cry

Because you said so

But now I do each day

Cuz you aren’t here anymore

It fills me up to my rim

A once happy memory is now grim

I drown each day

Each day in your memories

But you always try to push me

Push me up to the surface

My question to you is

Why don’t you ever let me

Let me live in your memories

You aren’t here anymore

But at least your memories are

Please let me live in them

Cause a life without you

Is not a life

It fills me up to my rim

A once happy memory is now grim

Where are you

When I need you the most

Probably laughing at everything

Every wrong that I do

Probably crying

Every time I’m hurt

Probably worrying

When I throw the milk

Down the sink

It fills me up to my rim

A once happy memory is now grim

I think I saw you once

Cheering me from up there

To do things I never experienced

I see a glimpse of you in me

Each time I look in the mirror

It fills me up to my rim

A once happy memory is now grim

The once happy memory is gone

The once happy memory was you

You are gone…

By Rimsha Shaikh