It's always you, Nikki
Updated: Oct 8, 2022
By Steven Ramthanmawia
Oh Nikki
what a force to be reckoned with are we
The buzz you give me reminds me
of a bumblebee
Assuring me I'm above little leagues
Your essence alone is oddly completing.
My best mermories is always our
moments of warmness
turn you on with a little heat
with your top off and the spark's on,
as we share the same breath.
sometimes I feel crazy without you,
taking a break from you
only worsens in a day or two.
Is this just a case of fallacy
I'm just blurring up stories, apparently.
Just another Gen Z child longing
for intimacy.
You were my means of escape,
feeling you in my lungs and in my vein.
Even though I want to try stray,
how could I ever?
Even a slight sight of you leaving
gives me an ache!
Letting you fill my bloodstream robustly,
always have you on my head.
They say "Self control maketh man"
Everyday you make me wonder who I am
who to aspire to be.
Every 30 mins I'm triggered to miss you,
"Here we go again"
Our early days made me reminisce,
hiding from our families and relatives,
eagerly await to meet at sunsets.
Feared to be seen together incase nothing lasts,
backtalks, you know we once hated that.
Funny cause we'll end up as ashes
Everytime I start over to
try get a new date,
as a means of avoiding you
finding another route,
in need of lifestyle change
But you're always just
a few bucks away, always do.
Should've called you Gloria,
cause it feels like I'm Glorifying you,
since this is deemed inapporiate
but for all I care.
I miss your stench,
heading home with your presence,
this is indeed false pretense
I need not explain, you always understand
Other's dont pay heed but you listen
usually dialogue-less but we embrace silence
Always missing you, never in the past tense.
Even though a constant flow with you
only makes my throat wheezing full.
You make me know I'll be needing you
cause you sure can read me like a textbook.
Would pass you around sometimes
like a handout,
try get you out of my mind;
just to remember I'll be needing
you before sundown
I'd die for you, cause you're
the only one in hand,
when I got no one to share,
the pain and fact I'm gazing at air.
Been together awhile now, I'm twenty,
we'd walk down the streets and held hands,
uncaring about who talks and stares.
You drive me insane maybe
to the point of mental,
moody when you're not by side,
not co-incidental.
Trying to take you in with doses
worsens my attachment
stitching up the patches,
turning to a friend.
I have to rid of you cause
you turn my lungs black,
charred heart and throat tanned.
Mind boggling how we met after
dating your cousin Mary.
The truth is,you make me feel seen
Like the rebel who
wants to be seen I be.
Oh Nikki,
My dear Nikkitine people call Nico.
Minor inconveniences have fell upon me again,
I'll be needing you in hand once again.
By Steven Ramthanmawia
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