It Can't Be

By Billy Johnson

We started what seemed a long time ago. 

Was rocky to start,but we began to grow.

I became your Pharaoh and you, my Nef.

It was love at first sight, I'm beside myself.

Franky,Maize, and Babyface, too.

I knew then, and now that I love you.

But you started to change and wanted it all.

I'm only a man,appalled by your gall.

I fought and fought because I love you.

I looked at no other, I was always true.

Still did not matter. You're better than me.

Though I disagree, that's 

 all you could see.

I'm sorry, Billy, you would never say.

It was always you. It was always your way.

I'm a stud from birth,so I can't go along.

So, I'm writing to you our sad swan song.

Yes, this is goodbye. I thought I'd never see.

That I could love you the way you couldn't love me.

My life's a mess,you're life is too.

Though you say different, I know it's true.

But all you could see was only my faults. 

All of your faults, not a second thought.

I don't even know just who you are.

I can feel your vibes. They're distant and far.

I don't know you at all, and still, didn't care.

I knew that I loved you,so I wanted to dare.

But I was so wrong, you're just not for me.

Of that, I am sure, was blind, now I see.

Maybe Sandra Bullock,or Ashley Judd.

Was meant for me. Not you, I'm your mudd.

You've broken my heart like I never thought could.

Without God in my life, I would be no good.

But I'm a better man than you will ever know. 

Go find another. He won't win,place,or show.

No one will love you like I love you. 

This is not a curse. This is just what is true.

You're the love of my life who let me down.

You wanted some time, not this time around.

So don't even call,don't write, don't think.

You wanted some time, that time is a wink.

A wink to know that you don't love me.

You say the words, but your body I see.

So goodbye dear, Sarah, Lori and Nef.

Appro for three names cause you don't know yourself. 

But someday you will find out just who you are.

But for us, it's too late. You've gone too far.

But that's okay. I've guarded my heart.

I've blocked it from you. The key won't start.

But I'll always remember what I thought was true. 

The love of my life that I thought was you. 

But that's just the past, old touchdowns, and glory. 

It comes to an end. It's the same old story.

Just know I won't quit. She's out there for me.

I will mention your name and how it just can't be.

It can't be for us. It can't be forever.

The love of my life we can't bring together.

You can't meet my family. I can't meet yours.

I don't trust you enough to open those doors.

So goodbye, dear Sarah. It just can't be.

I opened my heart, and you burned me.

But I am so much more than you will ever know.

It will never be us because you are all show.

Billy, show me this. Billy,show me that.

Just because you can't see doesn't make me a rat.

I'm a good man as you've said before.

So with tremendous sadness, I'm closing the door.

It's just too bad that you can't see.

But that's exactly why it just can't be.

By Billy Johnson