Insincere Apologies

By Sayali Pawar

Pardon, I’ve taken over her body

To everyone she seemed to love, I don’t

To everything she found funny, I don’t

A remnant of her fleeting life spoke what she wanted to forget

So I forgot it all

She wanted to leave the life behind but left afore

Leaving me alone to make sense of her scraps and gore

Unable to explain why I want what she wanted

The ties she had still untethered with no blade granted

So I sharpened her tongue

And wiped my hands off the dusty time

Asking more and more about her around

A girl not all too bad yet not heroic enough

A girl who smiled at everything and everyone off-the-cuff

A girl who lived just to be seen

A girl who lived just because she was seen

So I took away her tinted glasses

And disappeared from the dusty auras around

Listening more and more to her timid sound

A girl she wanted to be, stand when told to run

A girl who cried only behind doors tightly shunned

A girl who was dying to be heard

A girl dying for she failed to find a voice to be heard

So, I beg your pardon, I’ve taken over her body

To let the rude words out deftly

When she didn’t

To love much more fervently

When she didn’t

By Sayali Pawar