In love!

By Preeti Trehan

After 27 years, you actually thought I still love you and would go weak in the knees

No more a naïve college girl, now an individual in my own right, not so easy to please

Your wild chaotic ways don’t hold for me any appeal

You are always surrounded by people, give me no space, everything about you makes my head reel

We both are older now, our needs are different, even our names

Rugged and brash, wear your heart on your sleeve, you still feel no shame

Open arms, easy going, do what you please attitude, I agree you have no pretense

Wrapped up in what I was losing to be with you, for me being with you would never make any sense

I regretted having you back in my life but you silently stood by me and heard me say – again n again …

I will never love you the same, I will never love you again!!!

You are wild and free spirited; your dark side bothers me like never before

The negatives is all I focus on, I am miserable to the core

Look at what I have lost, to be with you a very high price I pay

Give it another shot, for old times’ sake…. you quietly say

I shrug and walk away.......and I say it again…..

I will never love you the same, I will never love you again!

Sometimes chaotic, sometimes sedate but you pursued me night and day

You beckoned me so gently, I felt guilty because I began to sway

Don’t get your hopes too high, this won’t last, I am not here for long

You calmly said it’s not a sin to love again, live in the moment, you are doing nothing wrong

What have you done to yourself you said, you know you need someone like me

We are made for each other, get rid of this façade and be free

I was once your safe cocoon for the adventure you always held within

Forget about me, you have forgotten yourself more, you let the years against you win

Where is the girl I loved who could walk a road alone or effortlessly stand out in a crowd

You have given enough of yourself to the ones you love, you have done well and I am so proud

Let me show you glimpses of our trysts, those balmy summer nights and the monsoon you adored

Rediscover the new me , seek out what used to thrill you, you cooed and cajoled

Almost seduced I meekly say it again……

But I will never love you the same ……can I ….should I love you again?

As your old and new traits surfaced, I found myself on a passionate treasure hunt

Inhibitions melted away, a weight lifted from my heart, and you were triumphant

Bold and beautiful is how I see you now, with nothing to hide, our chemistry never did end

I now celebrate you, can’t have enough of you, want to show you off to my family and friends

Yes! you are difficult but you bring out that long lost girl in me - once again you feel like you are mine

I have learnt to live in the here and now, start afresh, let go of the past and let every moment shine

Well, with that its confession time…..

I will say it again and again

My love for you has changed. I have fallen in love with you - again!!!!

Yes Bombay ….Mumbai – it is true I am in love with you again!

By Preeti Trehan