Impulsive Thoughts - Internal Monologue

By Suganya Sundar

What a pleasant weather! Oh! I should enjoy it while it lasts. Pleasant weather is hard to come by these days. The things they say about global warming- 108 degrees F shouldn’t be normal anywhere . What happens if we can’t save this planet? They will always stop when it’s too much. The wealthy will build rocket ships, to carry their family to a different planet where life could be possible. But what will happen to the ones who want to protect nature and save earth ? I guess the usual. Funny right, there are all kinds of treatments and life saving option for those who are addicted to bad habits or who don’t care about their health and the good ones have to do the hard work. But what if the nature just clicks the reset button? Hopefully if I make it through, I will have a fresh start. Am I procrastinating? Could be. Everything can wait for the weather. Or is that what all lazy people do, find excuses. Wait am I lazy? Of course, I  should be working otherwise. Why should I be working when no one else does? Oh it doesn’t work like that. Who am I to judge other people. This doesn’t count as judging though, as long as it’s in my thoughts. Everyone does think bad things happen to them and all others are being rewarded and happy. There is trouble with all of us, I just don’t know their story. I will try to be respectful of people in general for I’m not walking in their shoes. Anyways I should reread the Atomic habits and should plan on being more productive while the motivation lasts. So what can I do now? Anything. I just have to stand up and move within 5 seconds. But the weather is really good. Time is a luxury, not many people have it, to sit and admire nature like me. If I keep working, when is the time to sit and unwind? All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy, right? But all play and no work could make Jack a dull boy too. Why am I always stuck in these in-betweens? Unable to enjoy things to the core and guilty of small pleasures. Maybe I’m not mature enough to handle life. Oh what did I read the other day? It’s ok to live through the questions now and in the future without knowing I will live through the answers. There will be a reason for all these things happening to and around me. Well I’m not admiring nature, am I ? The weather is pleasant. I will go get some work done. 

By Suganya Sundar