I Once Cried Over a Boy

By Yarely Lopez

I once cried over a boy

Were they tears of grief? Regret? Pain? 

If this one were to end,

I would NEVER love the same. 

I thought this one was different?

at least i want him to be

I make excuses for his lacking

As if loving isn’t free

I pay the price of forgiving

Cus i want it to be you

Who’s to say that that has changed

Although you hurt me, healing you. 

I tell other boys that i don’t wanna date

Answer all their questions with a simple shoulder shrug. 

An indifference, i cant fake

Yet with this one, it just hurt being a choice he couldn’t make

I just wanted to love

And show him how my love is felt

But how can I learn to love him?

 he wont even love himself

This that gut wrenching hurt

The one that can’t get any worse

The wound that keeps on stinging

 pain i cant put into words

I once cried over a boy 

I admit it, but don’t want to. 

I accept I can’t deny it

‘cause the more I fall in love the more I wish I hadn’t tried it 

Always play the strong game, 

Act like I’m tough

 no matter how much I try, 

I still won't be enough. 

Not enough for you to care

Enough for you to be there too 

I stick around every day

Cus there’s no us without you.

By Yarely Lopez