I Miss Us

By Tania Basak

You are someone who never gets deadhead of listening to my meaningless talks, who never gets annoyed of handling my mood swings and countless tantrums. You are someone who keeps bracing up everytime. No matter how many times I call you grumpy how many times I call you funky, how many times I hassle with you, you'll always be my favourite. No, you are not my best friend, you are more than that.

If I say that i don't cry or i don't think of you then it would be a big lie. It was striking 1.30 am in the clock when I yelped in sleep, was nattering your name and i was so missing you that I took my phone, went to the whatsapp, kept staring at your dp where you put our school photo and all of a sudden boundless memories started flocking in front of me, I just could not grip my sorrow and burst into tears.I am sorry for being rude to you on the last day. I became really elated knowing that you got your job and that's why you would have to go to an another city but deep down i became completely battered because I did not want to let you go.

Tell me, when will you come here? I want to see you bitch. Don't you miss me? No, please! I don't want to hear any lame excuses. It's been a long time I haven't hugged you tightly, we haven't played chess together where you used to lose everytime, we haven't gone to that church where we would go on every Sunday. It's been a coons age, we haven't gone for shopping, we haven't watched flick together and our evening walks?I still remember that I always used to fight for that last slice of the pizza and that blue lays but you would grab like a monster. Remember? You know what did happen to me yesterday? I was in the market and a girl was haggling for a top which was only 100 rupees, believe me she was just like you and I was about to call your name but then I remember that you are not here.Now tell me, have you started learning cooking? Don't say yes because you are so laggard that you always order your food online so that you don't have to cook. If I am not wrong you don't even know how to cook maggi. Right? Sometimes I think, what will you do after marriage? Dude, you are impossible. I even heard that you don't take your medicine properly. How many times will i have to remind you to take your medicine on time? How can anyone be so sluggish and careless about their health? Stop having those junk foods. You know it's unhealthy but still you eat.Why don't you listen to me? Why? My god! You're such a stubby girl.I know I am giving you lecture and you are smirking like always. And why did you say? I don't love you? I don't miss you, I've forgotten everything and started ignoring you? And when I asked you why? You said, "You don't mention me in any post" and I was like, "Has she gone flaky out and out?" You know you are an emotional blackmailer but you forget that it doesn't work on me. I know your every nuts and bolts, which your family members don't even know, so don't try, Ok? So according to your logic if I don't tag you or mention you in any fucking post it means I don't love you like before? Are you crackpot or what? Can you please explain?And listen i didn't unlearn anything. Remember our last holi? You had fetched some odd colors and smeared all over my face, i was screeching but you held my hands so tightly that I couldn't do anything, you kept throwing those colorful balloons on me, i tried to stop but you didn't listen to me and after that I was looking like a fucking monkey and looked so crummy that even my family members didn't ken me, those stray dogs started barking at me and I was so spooked that I was literally shuddering but you were chortling ridiculously and then I thought, "Is she my best friend?", And for that reason we had a big fight and didn't talk to each other for one week. Remember that evening? We went to that restaurant, we had our dinner and after having that when I opened my purse i was shocked, sweating because there was no money.We were shivering and couldn't understand what to do?

Everybody looked at us in a very strange manner and laughing their heart out and we had to wash those plates as we didn't have money. My god! It was such a mess and embarrassing incident.I'll never forget that incident in my life.You remember that snuffy teacher? We would call her, "HITLER". That teacher used to scold us because we two would jabber too much. She would always beat me with a cane and affront me in front of everyone because I always would get less marks in her subject. It was just impossible for me to remember all those birth rates, death rates and kinky names.Trust me that day still gives me heart attack. Remembering all those math formulas were difficult for us so we made some small chits and kept them in our socks and also in our pencil box.We even wrote some answers in our boards. We had become brittle, hands getting cold but somehow we managed and It was our board exam and that teachers day? Oh my god! Recalling her face i start laughing my heart out.As we wanted to surprise our biology teacher so we had kept some tadpoles in her bag and as soon as she opened her bag she became senseless, yelling at us because she knew very well that we did it, everyone was mum but only we two evils were cackling and mam was so crossed with us that she didn't allow us to attend the biology class for 10 days but we were so impish that we made a plan to take a sweet revenge and that's why we stole her mobile and sent some kibosh messages to her colleagues and her friends and she was totally bemused thinking what was happening with her.My god! that was really side-splitting.

We were pitchy in our school days and also in college and that's why all the teachers would call us, "NEFARIOUS".We did so many awkward things in our childhood which our parents don't even know. I wish we could relive those golden days again where we were actually fucking happy because those were the halcyon days of our life. I miss our days extensively, i miss our evening walks, i miss our silly fights, long phone calls and your groundless conversations.Yes, i start squalling at times seeing our old album but I automatically start cackling when I remember your laugh because it's droll.You know what is the most difficult thing to handle? Your baseless tantrums.Yes and trust me sometimes it becomes really annoying but how can I stop loving my drama queen? Never.No matter how many times you get irritated I'll call you dumbass because you always talk gibberish, I'll call you miss moody because all of a sudden you become angry, start sniveling like a ten years old kid and fling everything. I'll keep calling you biriyani monster because you eat like a monster i'll annoy and hassle with you just like jerry does with tom, i'll scrap you for no reason because I love you, i'll admonish you because I do care for you. Now promise me that you won't cry otherwise I'll start crying.I don't want to see you crying. As simple as that.You are not only my best friend, you are my soul-sister and nobody can replace you. I repeat, "Nobody" and don't ponder that you are all alone, nobody loves you.No, i love you to death and I'll always stand by you. See I have scribbled such a long post for you and still you think that you are not special to me?Trust me if you say one more time that "I don't love you" I swear I'll bump you off. Now come soon you noodle because I miss "US". See, i remember every little thing. Now will you smile? Please?

By Tania Basak