I Am The Dog

By Gianna Torres

To lose something that’s been a part of me for so long

But it’s not a part of me

It’s just dragging me along

I am the dog

This collar is too tight 

I just want to take it off

I need to take it off

But who am I without it?

I’ll get lost on this walk

Never to be found

Or so I thought

It’s a part of me, it’s always been

It’ll always win

It’s in control 

How do I gain something back that I never truly had at all

Always hidden

A disguise like the smile I wear

The lies, they rip and they tear

Leaving me with nothing but skin and bones

Creating a house

Never a home

I need to reverse the roll

Take back what’s mine and should’ve been from the start

With all of me, every part 

Deep within

Where do I even begin?

There’s a sort of comfort in the pain

Cheating for fame

You know the consequences, but that doesn’t stop you 

You just do it over and over again

Making the same mistake

Until the mistakes catch up with you and there’s no other way

You have to give up on the game

You’ll never win 

The outcome is always the same

But somehow you’re the one to blame

“You should have listened to us.”

“You shouldn’t have let it take control agai.n”

But how can you listen to everyone else when that voice in your head is the loudest and it’s Screaming your name?

By Gianna Torres