Forgive Me To Never Forgive God

By Nivedita Arya

A family of four is like a square and have you ever seen a square turning into a triangle? Maybe yes and maybe no but according to my knowledge practically it is not possible but if I talk about my experience and these experiences can be anything but here I am talking about my very own personal experience which results in- yes a square can turn into a triangle and when it happens it breakthrough every little hope, desire, belief every little thing you know about life or its purpose within you. All the things come at you at once and it is very difficult to cope up because everything after that incident lead you to realize that you don’t own a square now and the more time your circumstances makes you realize that the cut in your heart gets deeper.

Someone has rightfully said, the pain doesn’t decrease rather you learn to live with that pain and grow with it. There’s also this that every single day you live with that pain and how much ever people say you need to move forward or you need to forget or anything for that reason, the sad reality is we will remember that day- the day which changed the very existence of our life till our last breath and every moment in your life whether you do whatever but this situation will come with you everywhere at every moment at the back of your mind telling you that once your world was shattered but simultaneously showing you that you need to rebuild everything once more.

Rebuilding your life may feel like learning to walk all over again, there will always be hinderances in the form of emotional breakdown, anxiety attacks, low morale , strong need for social isolation and many more- differs from people to people but despite all this we need to be motivated- might be our growth will be slow but it will definitely be there and during this course every small step will be an achievement for which the true people in your life will always be appreciative.

Also in this process of healing, growing and rebuilding you might loose people but never focus on them rather than focus on people who stand by you and help you take the step forward, and it might only be 1-2 people but they will always be there with you for you like an army.

By Nivedita Arya