Descent's Mosaic

By Himanshi Jaglan

In the depths of uncertainty, I crumble and fall,

Once certain, now lost in doubt's dark sprawl.

Each step forward, pushed back by despair,

In this churning doubt, it feels like no one's aware.

The questions now sting my mind, blur my sight,

Closing my thoughts away, suffocating, tight.

It's hard to think, doubts crash above,

But I must find the strength to question, to move.

Nervousness engulfs me like a relentless wave,

Will I ever break free, find the courage to be brave?

The doubts fill my mind, making it hard to believe,

Yet, my heart whispers, "Keep questioning, don't leave."

I see a shattered horizon, a mosaic of shattered thoughts,

Each fragment a reminder of how nothing's as it ought.

Fate and destiny taunt me, in the moonlit night,

While my dreams fade away like stars out of sight.

Oh, the uncertainty that haunts my every thought,

I try my best, but it's a battle I've endlessly fought.

The doubts close in, the darkness takes hold,

Will I ever find clarity, escape this deep, cold?

Yet, hope buoys me like a life raft in doubt's might,

Will it be enough to keep me afloat through the night?

The doubts rise and fall, as if mocking my plight,

In this vast expanse, will I ever see the light?

The doubts are foggy, and I'm lost in the haze,

My heart's questions echo as I navigate this mental maze.

Blinded by fear, I reach for a glimmer of hope,

But darkness engulfs, with its relentless scope.

In the depths of despair, I question my fate,

Will I ever find answers, or is it all too late?

The doubts press on, their weight hard to bear,

With waves of fear crashing, my mind races.

Terrifying thoughts surge, haunting my mind,

A prisoner to doubt, to hopelessness confined.

The doubts close in, as if trying to consume,

Am I meant to drown in this mental tomb?

With trembling thoughts, I swim through the unknown,

In this vast expanse, I feel so utterly alone.

The doubts rise higher, the waves grow strong,

Will I have the strength to keep questioning along?

Each moment, like an eternity, stretches ahead,

The weight of doubt on my shoulders, like lead.

The doubts grip tight, pulling me under,

In this vast expanse, will I be torn asunder?

Yet, somewhere within, a tiny spark remains,

A glimmer of curiosity that still sustains.

With trembling questions and a fragile heart,

I'll keep questioning forward, though it feels like I'll fall apart.

The doubts are fierce, their grip hard to fight,

In the midst of uncertainty, I'll search for the light.

In the vast expanse, I'll keep up the fight,

With hope as my compass, guiding me through the night.

Though the doubts are treacherous, I'll push through,

In the midst of fear, I'll find understanding anew.

For deep within me, I know there's more,

Something enlightening waiting on the distant shore.

The doubts continue to rise, it's hard to see,

But my heart urges me on, "Keep questioning, be free."

I don't know what will happen, what's in store,

Will I find clarity on the distant shore?

The doubts are relentless, I'm losing my way,

But still, I keep questioning, trying not to sway.

The journey is uncertain, the destination unclear,

Yet, I'll keep swimming, even through my fear.

Will I find answers, or will I meet my end?

In this vast sea of uncertainty, I must transcend.

I don't know what's next, what answers hold in store,

But I'll keep questioning, striving for something more.

By Himanshi Jaglan