Are the really special or is it you

By Mehmooda Khan

Have you ever told someone that they are special to you? Has anyone ever told you that you are special to them? You see after all these times of entitling people with the word 'Special', I am beginning to realise that it's not the person who is special, it's you who make them feel special. There's nothing extraordinary about that person, they are just as ordinary as any of us. It's your love and your energy that makes them special. It's the way you look at them, the way you make them feel, the way you hold their hands or kiss their face, they way you worry about them, the way you always check up on them, the way you can't go a day without thinking about them, the way you love them...

You don't have to say 'I love you' to love a person. Hey are you okay? (I love you), I dreamt about you last night (I love you), The moon is beautiful today (I love you), How was your match? (I love you), I wrote a letter for you (I love you), I couldn't stand anyone talking bad about you (I love you), Where have you been? (I love you), You are the best, always remember that (I love you), Just hold me tight in your arms (I love you), I brought a pizza for you (I love you), I'm taking you out to eat your favourite pastry (I love you), I am afraid of losing you (I love you), You make me happy (I love you), I will always keep this (I love you), You're lucky for me (I love you), Holding your face in the hands (I love you), Entangling fingers in yours (I love you), Kissing on the forehead (I love you)...

You see, 'I love you' is so much more than just I...Love...You…

I know it's not easy, holding on to people who don't want you to hold on to them. I know it's not easy, giving the amount of love to someone which you know you'll never ever receive from them, I know it's not easy always being confused because of someone, I know it's not easy dreaming about things you have a fear of not happening, I know it's not easy balancing on broken bridges or living the same story over and over again, each time expecting a different ending, I know it's not easy living like this. But what I do know it, it doesn't have to be this way. Because you don't deserve to live like this. Look at you. There's beauty and grace and talent and love in you, and even if you don't see yourself that way, atleast you are alive. And I think that's a reason good enough to know what you deserve. What you deserve is clarity, what you deserve is efforts, what you deserve is love, what you deserve is people who put you first, what you deserve is passion in love, what you deserve is magic and nothing less. But what you surely don't deserve is a person who makes you feel any less or who gives you any less. Goodbyes are the hardest part, people say. But goodbyes can be the most beautiful thing you can ever do for yourself. Say goodbye to the people who don't add value in your life, people who don't choose you, people who don't seek your happiness, people who always hurt you knowingly or unknowingly (what matters is that you're hurt and that person made you feel like that) , people who are in your life just for the sake of a past thing, people who disrespect you and act like they didn't, people who never prioritise you and have a million excuses. Be wise with who you let enter in your heart, mind, body and life. This isn't a public garden. It's you! And not any-random-body can enter it just like that. They got to prove their worth, they got to show you that they can afford the luxury of 'you' and that they can afford to take care of it. Do not, ever, ever, let people treat you any less.

By Mehmooda Khan