A Quest

By Arpita Guru

I wish to take a long stride away from the mayhem inside my head,  

May be take a run to fasten getting away;  

Because the patience of ordinary things is long bygone,  

And my heart is impatient to weave the long-awaited tranquil stories with me as the main character.    

I wish to steal moments of peace and love from the godown of life’s emotions -  The shops in my heart doesn’t sell positivity and hope anymore,  

And I have no option left than stealing moments;  

Stealing may be a crime and stealing moments is something I am willing to commit to be  handcuffed with serenity.  

I wish to hone the art of getting by,  

And put aside the fear that my path is made of glass -  

Where I need to be careful and watchful of every step I take so as not to break any block ahead that  would make me fall in the deep abyss –  

Where my voices will echo for sure but no one to hear by.  

I wish to take a walk with my feelings,  

And have a long deep conversation about my keepsakes -  

On, why I still treasure the keepsakes when they hurt me while I travel my memory garden?  The memories - an old photograph, a broken wine glass, a jacket, a perfumed burnt-edged handwritten  letter yet to be read, a rose, a friendship band;  

They haunt, but this time, I want to have the closure-seeking conversation – putting an end to all the  what-ifs and why nots.  

I wish to be free and full of life and light,  

To put an end to the darkening doorsteps like a moon eclipsing the sun;  

Rather answer the door bell of stability -  

As the nature’s play of lightness after darkness, happiness after sadness, cheers after tears are not  just a process,  

But a reality of life to accept and go on.  

I wish to no longer be embarrassed about the dangling skeletons in my closet,  Instead embrace my flaws and blemishes -  

For the moon also has spots yet it is a symbol of love, symbol of tranquility,  

Shining alone, showing light amidst the darkness -  

And thus, I should no longer hide what I have, what I am –  

It’s time to break the shackles, time to fulfil my quest – my quest for peace and stability.

By Arpita Guru