A Mistake Happened

By Dominique Scott

How can I apologize if I don't know what I'm apologizing for? We were supposed to be thick as thieves but here we are. You've said "I Do" and now going to welcome in new life into the world. But I've never got to say "congratulations" or "I thought that was in the air." No, you announced it to others and I've heard from them. Someone who claims I was a best friend, the colors showed when wedding came, I overcompensated for a lonely heart. Jokes were made and I thought we were tougher and knew how to call each other out. You're going to rob me and abandon me just like the rest and brother who robbed me of being an aunt to my niece. But shouldn't I be upset? The times you ganged up on me or destroyed my things out of jealousy. The mistreatment I dealt with from you but forgave and never shut you out. If I were to die today would you even mourn? Why? You purposely cut me out which hurts because I saw the hurt and pain when your best friend tossed you to the side after years or friendship. You bash me for attracting broken people, I can't be a kind person? You never once asked if I was okay or what I was going through during all that time. You had your happy day while I was having my heart ripped out, but tried to fake a smile and be there. Seeing who you said by your side when I thought it would be me. When I plan on saying "I Do" I wanted you by my side. But reality has changed, relationship has drifted and died. It hurts and I get sad thinking about it. But I shouldn't have to be the bigger person when you should come to me and straight out tell me the problem, so things can be resolved. I see that isn't happening and this Russian roulette is a draw. Crazy how our future look so different now, it's heartbreaking. 

By Dominique Scott