Wish

By Iba Mahin

I wish I find you,

Someday , 

In a way I got you before,

Small, fragile and vulnerable,

And it could be the first time again,

That I hold you in my hand.

The way you filled the void,

In my heart,

The way you made me,

Happy before,

With your little furry self 

And tiny paws ,

Because I hate to admit ,

Since you left 

I don’t feel the surge 

Of life anymore.

Because, truth is ,

I am not capable of 

Loving anything or anyone,

Like I have adored you ,

And I know nothing can 

Make me feel the same ,

The way your mere presence 

Wiped away all my pain.

How to let go of the pain ?

I feel every time I see things around ,

Which reminds me of you.

That bench in the park ,

I can smell your scent on it from afar ,

That little abandoned house ,

Still reminds me of the way 

You walked in there close to me 

Side by side,

Like the best of pal.

No, I am not capable of filling 

The void 

Your absence has created in 

My heart.

And there is no remedy 

For these embedded scars.

How do I erase you?

From my memory,

When you have been the,

Most beautiful existence,

Of my life’s journey.

And I swear I won’t lie if I say

I’ll wait for you till eternity!

How do I let go?

Of the most selfless angel,

That illuminated my life,

When I was surrounded by 

The darkness and negativity,

Of the worst kind.

Dear wingless angel, you came

Like an oasis in the deep dessert,

After I was exhausted after walking for the miles.

The way you used to look at me 

With those big beautiful eyes,

My sorrows used to vanish,

By your mere concerned sight.

But now, as I stare into

The deep oblivion night,

I came to realise,

That you are no longer 

By my side,

And I feel the 

Stinging longlines inside.

Dear wingless angel,

I searched for all remidies ,

To heal a broken heart,

From absence of beloved pet,

(No, that’s too formal,

A daughter as a cat in disguise )

But I failed to find,

And your absence has left a completely 

Shattered me behind.

Yet, when I am shattered 

By the challenges of life,

I feel your presence around me,

Lovingly cuddling and spreading positivity.

By Iba Mahin