To My Love
By Arunima
Had a life full of battles, some outer, mostly inner
Tears soothed my burning heart, I cried, I let it simmer
Time passed, but didn't heal
I learnt to cope, suppress and conceal
Found a way to shield myself from the gloom
How will people hurt me if I lock myself up in my room
So, I did just that. Lived life in the hiding
Followed a routine, eliminated the exciting
In you came like the first drop of rain,
At first glance I knew you were meant to break the chain
Bright and joyful with a disgustingly sweet smile
My exact opposite, your mere existence felt hostile
Hesitant yet couldn't pull away, a voice in my head advised me to stay
Fighting the urges, the fears and the doubts,
I held your hand as you showed me the world around
You put the soul into my dull life; "One day I'll make you my wife"
We couldn't have been more flawless. Everything made sense when we were “Us”
With every passing second, I adored you more
But unknown to me, you had started off to the door
Maybe it was my heart, maybe it was my mind
Something worth enough for you to leave us behind
I bellowed, I cried, in front of you and alone
Please don't leave me, dear... How will I survive on my own?
So, everything they had said was in fact really true
I was worthless and unlovable, all their words construed
Your gifted me back to my demons again
You left me back here, now without the power to refrain
Took me to the highest of the clouds
Prepared me for my fall, steep and loud
My favourite person, in you I had found my true love
For you I changed my life around but I guess it still wasn't enough
Sometimes I wish that you could have cheated instead
At least I could hold a grudge and leave you for dead
I sit not knowing what to do with all the love I have for you
I try to keep myself sane, throwing myself into habits old and new
Seems like you will have no trouble in getting over me
Wish I could do the same and set the thoughts free
But now I live for the sake of it
I breath, I feel, for the name of it
By Arunima
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