Thoughts

By Gauri

I wondered about how time has passed by,

Mocking memories and contradictory thoughts of mine to burry deep down the ocean's crust if may I try.

I felt not describing anything to anyone,

You might have loved me was the best of rumour I have heard.

This time I question myself for dragging you so far,

Which might have happened without your desire otherwise it could've been lasted at least more than a cold war.

Was I wrong at picking everything in an assertive way?

I would've known it only if you could've not made love to me when I've rested my head onto your chest when we lay.

I wish I would've brought some clarity towards my moves,

Least did my heart would've ached this time searching for the way you hide your feelings just like you hide your oldest dirty shoes?

I saw you cleaning up the dirt over the shoes once in a decade,

I think me or anything about me didn't deserve to get a chance to show up in your mind as you might have hated!

I remember the day when I was cheerful to write about someone special,

And you being the reason behind everything,

My smile, my day, my routine, my dreams,

as almost everything has already shattered..!

I remember your words, your thoughts, how do they depict the clear hatred for me,

Loving you, wanting you for the whole life feels like my biggest sin!

If only i could ask for a little more for the last time,

Would you let me be liable for the forgiveness that I seek as I pour my heart out on a dream date where we used sit and dine!

By Gauri