State Of Mind

By Yasmin J

Its funny how our state of mind works. It can go from feeling incredibly complete to not feeling anything at all. It sure has its own way of making us feel. How do you know if you want to be adjoined with people or to be aligned alone? What if our core happiness depends on the courageous steps we need to take that we lack. How to get back to the state of pureness and innocence? Why do we feel so tired, torn and more awful to live the way we live each day knowing the other version of who you have always wanted to be is watching you and sighing because she knows you can only dream and dread and can never become

something worthwhile. We all know what it is — we want to be liked or just want to be likeable so that there are no arguments or fights involved. We always walk that slippery lane and ready to fall offshore to a land of temporary dead silence peace when all that you need is on the other side and all you need is cross that border of courage, grit and tough conversations. I think we never really love ourselves — we might stand up for ourselves depending on the person in front but we never really stand up at all times. We put in all the toil not to become better but sometimes to just inflict sorrow on ourselves. I wonder how easy it is for our brain to turn against ourselves. I think without having certain principles designed for ourselves, we might become an oscillating leaf that is so uncertain of its life and drops when it can no longer contain itself. I wonder how long it would take for us to become that hanging leaf.

By Yasmin J