Someone

By Alice Jeya Flora F

At the time of my hardship

I know who is in my heart

And I am happy that you are the one that I love, because my heart beat tells your name.

Your smile is enough for me to be happy,

Your touch is enough for me to feel warm,

Your love is enough for me to live forever,

Your presence is enough for me in this world.

‘I love you’ is not just a word

It’s a feel, we both share

It’s a destiny, to get fulfilled

It’s a heart, to be conquered.

You are my everything

But I am your nothing.

I gave you my everything

But you know nothing.

Your existence is my world

But my existence is unknown.

You are someone in my heart

But I am no one to you.

Miss you everyday and night,

When the sun rise up, when it falls

And when the winter bloom,

The drops of rain reminds me of the tears that I shed

When I missed you.

I feel numb,

I’m neither happy nor sad.

It’s so cold and cruel

At the same time,

I don’t know where my path is taking.

I am wandering and lost.

I feel too small

That the world around me is engulfing.

I’m trying to breathe

But it’s so suffocating.

I’m trying my best to stay strong

But at the end of the day,

I break down into millions of pieces.

Someone pick up the pieces and hold me close.

You are like the star in the sky,

It’s always there but only visible at night.

Just like that you are making my darkest days

Brighter by shining in my sky.

I can’t bloom like a flower

Because the colors are faded inside me

And I need a rainbow named You.

When You came into my life

The wither land bloomed.

I am hurt and I’m sad, I want to give up and I can’t,

I am hopeless yet I’m holding on, What’s this madness?

Is it called love..?

It’s hurting me a lot so I’m letting you go

Because holding on to something for too long is painful than letting go.

I want to let go even if I’m in a cliffhanger

And fall into the deep dark sea.

I don’t like to sleep in the dark

Because I can’t see your face,

I don’t like to stand in the back

Because I can’t see you close,

I don’t want to wake up

Because you are in my dreams.

I feel cold when I am under a duvet, why?

I feel numb when I cry, why?

I fake a smile when I’m happy, why?

My sob is a lullaby

My tears are my comfort

And my pillow is the comfort zone.

This smile can’t reach the eyes

Because these eyes are door to the heart

And this heart is broken

So this person is faking a smile

With all the sorrow.

By Alice Jeya Flora F