Siamese

By K Vignesh

For a big chunk of my life I've tried to look emotionless

Like some cool anime character, who never ever cares

Turns out I'm not and could never be one, even with all the facade that's left to spare

I was only afraid of getting hurt and this was my defence mechanism

It never should depend on how much the plot thickens and being consistent is what sells your character

Or my bluff will be caught like I'm a bad barrister

Even if I'm bleeding I'm willing to protect my pride

It's like my OCDs get the best of me, trust me I've tried

So lying to myself Like I'm Chad or built like an iron clad

Won't even make sense and I'm that

to the point where it's oozing with pettiness

Suddenly the character ain't cool no more

Defeats the whole purpose of having one

The very thing meant to protect me

Me and my anxiety playing Siamese

That's why I feel so detached everywhere

And I had no options but to play along

Like I'm stuck in a long play and waiting for the

curtains to go down.

By K Vignesh