Saudade

By Chandan Pandey

See a desert in my side

And, all I behold is brown

Moon is brown and the Sky

Cause after You are gone

All that remained is...

The Sand and Foam!

Wave of life is missing

For the Sand, Sea is reaching

But I lie shattered in the Grey Oblivion

Too far from the Blue desert

Perhaps to save the Shadows....

And, The Sand and Foam.

All, I embraced was the Love

Alas! I never Embraced Thee

Running for the Shadows,

Chained to the Horizons,

Crying for the Moon, Celestial Love

My Dreams stampede you in the turmoil

And in this hour of departure

I long for The Sand and Foam.

YOU summon me in this dry hour

You raise yourself to me

Ah ! I do not know how I could contain You

In the earth of My soul, in the cross of my arms!

Or in the Desert of my fervent Dreams!

For, the Love is ever incomplete....

And you and me,

Like the incomplete breath of Unfinished kiss.

Cause You come and go

And Toils are great, but in vain

Of the Sand to contain...

Without cease, I seize your Remains

But moments pass, and The Foam is gone...

A stroke of wind blows The Sand away.

Who says Time is a healer ??

Entangled on The Parting of worlds

But how do I meet Thee?

For Thou livest in Infinite depths.

Like the sand, I wander with the crazy wind

oh ignorant! my craving for the light

But the Sun is eclipsed and the vision skewed,

All that I see is a dark Horizon...

And everything sank, in the Sand and Foam.

You rise from the lost horizon...

But I am the Lost discoverer!

Wounded and blinded soul,

In the black solitude of the Islands,

My Dreams in exile!

Oh deserted me! you are far

Farther than all,

You are the un-worshipped deity,

And I am the yet un-offered flower of your ruined temple.

In the Depths, On the Shore

We lie in deathless neglect!

Oh abandoned me! But I feel your Thirst

With every coming tide..

You fill my frail vessel.

Like the emptiness of sand,

My Voyage of Longing.

But my love for foam, In you my longing fell

My Destiny! In you everything sank.

Who can fathom whose longing's more?

Off the sand of endless shore!

Or the foam of infinite Sea!

Thou have filled me with the greatest sea,

Such is Thy love for me.

I Know not, but I keep it in the shrines

Still,

Like the wait of (over) an Unborn Tear...

Life is an endless Saudade,

Of What ?? You ! Love !

Or The Sand and Foam !!!

By Chandan Pandey