Poems by Devangana

By Devangana.S

Standing too close, yet why can’t we touch?

An invisible glass door, feels like separate worlds

Can’t see what’s with you, hope you are happy

My long gone smile, I never wished to be here

Fear to welcome you in, desire to pull you closer

Safer in your arms and peace in your embrace

Even your energy feels home, so familiar to soul

Seeking you in every eye, too childish I know

My fingers can’t find you, your fading silhouette

Maybe you are my illusion, Escape from reality

One of my daydream, my mind’s hiding place

Fear to welcome you in, desire to pull you closer

Then why can’t I let go our arms even it’s not held?

Crush

Fascinated by the mirror of your soul,

Wanting to dwell-in without any care

Your eyes keep pulling me into you,

Can’t stop the heavy breaths & gulps

Daydreaming our small moments,

You never noticed my red cheeks

Letting our bodies to mere touches,

Wishing to never forget your smell

Engulfing your presence with smile,

Hiding myself with quick peeks

Wanting to live the movie in my head,

Let us be the Romeo and Juliet

Wild woman

Hair strands let her feel the cold wind breeze

Open arms are ready to greet the newness of era

Melodious humming tickling her soft cherry lips

Moon made her face clear, gazing Mother Earth

Cherishing her mysterious aura, gift of darkness

Her legs can’t stop touching the green meadow

Body moving with rhythm of her own wild music

She let herself indulge and flow with nature love

Mountains keen to hear her roar, louder than thunder

Night became still for her, wise words of old soul

Running her hands through colors of creation,

She unleashed her unique Divine consciousness

She is a radical rebel and voice of truth,

A wild woman with passionate sparkling eyes

Little for this world

Sky touching building, shining diamonds

Fast moving world, growing lives and brains

Seems to be perfect, but my mind is cruel

Why this sparkling hides scary stories?

Why I tried to run away from clock ticking?

Why it feels the end of things I wanted to hold?

Why it never feels forever for me?

Closing both of my ears, scared to walk

Greenery feels dessert, steps of a lost child

'Mature' for this world, yet finding her safe zone

Why those sharp eyes look like blindfolded?,

Failed to see the weeping little figures

Who will protect her from monsters under bed?

Whose arms hold her tight when she snuggle?

Who catch her when she fall from bird's nest?

Scattered memories of heat that she craves

Another world, where love is pure and warm

Fear of losing one day, that's her nightmare

Her darkness

Diving into the slumber of ending, numb in deep stillness

That's what she craved for so long, Want to let herself go

No essence of calls from behind, Tired of chasing and running

Silence caught her throat and words, it hurts like million stabbing

Unfamiliar jigsaw puzzles of bonds, Failed to join her lost pieces

Her clay castle kept falling, the rooms feels so cold and empty

Lonely kitten roaming around, addicting scent of darkness

May seem to be her strength but, she never wished to be there

Raising the hand to the sky, one last breath left her body

She is in peace and home, Her long wish came true

Betrayal

Falling deep into glitters, blind with hope

Heart seems crazy, Devouring my senses

Holding those hands, I lost in darkness

Scary forest seems bright, illusion of trust

Just like fireflies, failed to see hungry eyes

Yet you left me, felt like far away from home

Tears screamed my agony, you never cared

Melting on my knees, eyes wander around

Losing the last faith, letting myself to break

Arms hold my light tightly, legs taking steps

Turning my back to this world, see you never

Slow down

Fast moving cars and awake lives, the sounds of breeze seems insignificant

Tripping on the puddles with sweats, yet no one noticed reflection of moon

Rising desire and blast of music, the holding hands of hearts are forgotten

Chasing something that more greener, why it is running away from us then?

Eyes fixed on counting the shining stars, not the stars in the sky though

Fluctuating with the traffic lights of society, Now the world will notice right?

Making the most out of the waves in the brain, what about the long lost heart?

Kind of feeling dizzy in midst of all, wanting to scream with agony and confusion

Will I be on the top of the mountain?, Is this the path to non-stop flash of cameras?

Then why I feel the emptiness of happiness? Did I ever dreamed for this?

Soulmate

Just around the corner they said, why it’s taking decades

Still keeping my flame of love closer, even it hurts like hell

Laying down the mattress of hope, where your footprints never fade

Leaning to the breeze of relief, soothing my skin with your smell

Want to surrender the intimacy thirst, to collide energies of Divine

Aching tone of my heart, seeking the familiar heartbeats

Craving of my soul like a child, long lost past live promises

Never a mere touch of your fingers, burning sensation of spirits

You found the naked me, laying on the pure love yet messy

Caressing my scars and flaws, you were there with all you can give

Knowing you will be here, like always with an open arms

Sleeping under same roof of sky, but not together for now

Way back

Inhaling long lost scent, eyes flashed stories

Going back to home, where I truly belong

Stones turn into kisses, failed to realize them

She was there all along, waiting for my return

Lantern kept her warm, flame rise in truth

Wind gave up, It was weak before her arms

Everything once I shield, failed to stay in life

Giving a rude awakening, painful endings

It’s cloudless now, but it never went missing

My shaky legs trusted her, no lies were told

Her sweet and sour love, that’s what I need

Warm coats became cold, scattered on path

Sliding through my body, with ripping skin

Her smile gave me hope, like light in dark

Can’t see the end, I keep on walking to her

Her aura exudes mysticism, with comfort

No light and dark, only spirit of oneness

I can see my reflection, water is calm

She was near me, but felt too far away

Our hands never left, all I want is her touch

Mirror is thin yet can hurt, worth breaking it

Recalling the way back to myself, My home

Phoenix of love

Stuck in between the bridge of love,

Where the fire keep eating the woods

Eyes keep wandering for an answer of sign,

So that my body can run into your arms

Finally letting myself to melt down,

Surrendering to the promises of lifetime

Is your sword strong enough to fight for us,

Is this what you want for us forever?

Your foot stepped back just like others,

Flames found the way to my body

My world started to burn in front of you,

All you cared was your pedestal of ego

You stopped crossing the bridge with me,

Losing the last hold of your arms of hope

Fire crumbled my body into ashes and cuts,

In the midst of agony I can see you fading

Hugging the last piece of my burning heart,

I rose from the ashes just like a phoenix

Flying far away with all the wounds and hurt,

Closing the chapters of you in this life

By Devangana.S