My Love My Soul: Verses Unknown To Him

By Nandhini Chithra

I know its pitch dark your soft soul has become,

I fathom those pains that never heal,

They are eternal I know I intensely feel.

Your loss and aches are dense as woods,

Withering tears for your fallen father that come,

I feel every nick of it, I feel every nick of the painful you,

Each second as it pass by I deeply do.

Even I'm sleepless to think about your void,

Your lips don’t smile and are pale dark,

I cry when your smiling face beats my heart hard.

I couldn’t versify what I feel for you,

It’s just you I deeply feel.

No wonder I'm your mate, your only soulmate.

I don’t long to be the moonlight in your darkness,

All I yearn is to clutch your hands tight and never let them go.

I don’t need you to see me in the dark,

I want you to feel me alive deep in you in it.

If can’t I hold your hands in your dark days,

Then let me be the air you breathe in the darkness.

I don’t want to wipe yours tears when you cry,

But to hold your cheeks and kiss your forehead,

And place your delicate head onto my arms,

So that you can cry out completely , not alone but to me.

I don’t want to stop your sufferings and pains, ‘cause I know I can’t,

But I long that you can share them all to me,

I can’t let my other part of the soul suffer alone,

Let me too suffer along with it, let me suffer along with you, my love,

So share it all with me, let’s suffer and take this together.

You are my soul, my love, my life, my everything,

You are my something, you are me,

You are mine, only mine.

Hell or Heaven, demons or gods,

Let them all fear the truth that you are mine.

Whatever miseries life causes you, just remember;

There’s always a soul to love you,

No matter what I’ll love you unconditionally.

Dear love, I'm there for you to love at your worst,

And to care you at your best,

Remember I'm always there, always there in your heart.

We aren’t together now, yet when you mourn,

My heart bleeds its tears too.

I don’t want to feel helpless; I wish to be your healing heart,

Not only my untold dream, you have become-

the reason and purpose of my life too.

The most beautiful reason like dream is to live, for, is you,

I can’t find verses to console your broken heart,

But, I myself want to be your lovely console.

I have no idea how I feel right now, right this very second,

All I feel is only you, your darkness, and your everything.

My love, you are my love,

I'm not going to let you take this all alone,

But having your pains shared with me,

Let me cry along with you,

Also, let me die along with you,

I feel exactly the same what you feel for your father.

I feel you, your cries and aches; you may not know,

I'm in my darkest days too as you are in it,

Because you are drowned I'm drowned too.

The only thing that I long is to hug you soothingly and whisper-

in your ears, “You have me and I love you, I love you forever.”

There are past days that I’ve longed to be in your arms,

But now I long to take you into my arms and never let you go,

My lovely soft hug will make you feel better.

If you breathe sufferings, then let me breathe them too, with you,

If you are about to die, then let me die too, with you,

It’s because, “I love you.”

No. I won’t let you die,

Death can’t claim you from me,

Let the death itself die, if it ever tries-

to touch my only love,

I’ll make the death itself suffer if it ever tries to.

Death is normal I know,

But not when it comes to my only love.

If it has to take you, then let it take me along with you.

My love, know that my drunken verses are powerful and true,

And my feeble soul is dead if it is without you.

By Nandhini Chithra