Letter To Self

By Smita Mahto

Dear beautiful,

Yes you’re the one. Why to wait for someone to say that, do you really need a confirmation?

No, right? You’re amazing my darling. And, you carry a beautiful heart.

I’m so proud of you as you’ve tried so hard to fix others when your own hands were bruised. I’m really sorry to push you ahead for everyone in need.

I am sorry I didn’t give you time to heal from your wounds, and let you bandage the wounds of everyone else while you’ve yours bleeding.

I’m proud of you for keeping that smiling face amidst all the problems so not to let anyone else to worry for you.

I’m proud of you for giving all your time and efforts to the people, even when you got in return hurt and pain. Thank you for keeping faith upon people even when you got all reasons not to.

I’m proud of you for keep fighting alone. There were days when you had cried out your pain under the shower so nobody could see the tears streaming down your face. The days when you were mourning in grief and it was so hard for you to pull through yourself in those dreadful days.

But you never forget to wear a smile every morning, to make everyone around you happy. You’ve helped them stand when you yourself were unable to stand.

And, I’m sorry when everybody failed to value you, I too blamed you for it.

Thank you for not letting the light inside you die, for not letting the goodness in you fade away and for always keeping faith upon the kindness this world has left with.

Thank you for surviving the worst storms. Thank you for not sinking in the tears you’ve been given by others.

Thank you for choosing to live when you have nothing to live for.

Thank you for always finding hope on the other side, no matter how dark it is.

Thank you for helping me rise above all the problems with high spirit.

I love you the most. And will keep loving you regardless the flaws you carry on your skin.

My girl, you’ve grown up from the experiences and I’m happy to see you smiling in the same old way.

I hope you find the real people in your life those who will make your life beautiful. I hope you find the moments that will take your breath away. The moments that take you to places where you get heal. The moments that

Makes you feel alive.

I hope you find people with whom your heart connects. I hope you find friends who encourages your spontaneity, and who always hold you when you need.

I hope you live. I don’t want you to hold back.

There is so much to feel in this world. I hope you feel it all.

I wish you get the best of everything good. I hope you figure out your aim. I hope you figure out your own way of living. I hope you figure out to be kind towards yourself too, and love the journey that you’ll lead further. Today and everyday I see you in a treasured way.

All the best my baby.

From the innocent girl who is still somewhere inside you. I’ll be with you, always.

Love,

Your Older Self

By Smita Mahto