By Goutham Satheesh
To my dearest, Anna.
Hi, it's been a while since I opened up to you nah? Yeah, I know. I'm really sorry, everything has been difficult since you left. It doesn't look like anything is different from the outside but nothing is the same for me. It's at times like these I remember everything we've been through and the gorgeous memories I have with you. From the first time I laid eyes at you in that small theatre, sitting beside you and laughing my heart out. Coming to see you and holding your hand, rubbing it softly without anyone noticing us being a secret of our own really sacred.
Going on our first date ever that too for a movie franchise we both love even if we were 30mins late, the lunch and the walk we shared afterwards was the best time of my life. I was never ever so happy and having fun like then. Then sharing a kiss with you the time after, even though I was super nervous around you. Going along with you on a train ride, hugging you, holding your hand while I wrapped myself with your scarf. To steal a kiss with you at the hotel, see the beach and sleep beside you that night.
Having breakfast the next morning even though you couldn't finish it, walking along with you arguing and holding you tight the next time we saw, and finally seeing you fall asleep beside me like a tired infant after being so angry with me.
I miss everything about you, the way we talked about all the nonsense in this world, my awkward questions and your wild answers for everything. To fall asleep after hearing your stories and hearing you laugh so beautifully. Even my crappy singing you like so much.
All this may sound like I'm stealing it from every rom-com movie that exists, but it is what it is. You are my will to live, I get up out of my bed everyday even if there isn't anything happening for me because of you. I don't care if you ever call me your boyfriend or any label of sorts, the only thing I know for sure is I love you a lot hon, and I may not be very good at expressing it but I really do care for you. I hope I never lose you because you are the best. You are my Kanmani.
I will come to you sooner or later.
With loving regards,
GOST
By Goutham Satheesh