Just My Thoughts

By Shivani Arora

I know it’s been long

that I have poured my heart out

I know I have given it all

that I forgot how to live in the moment and shout

Million things racing my mind

More money, more knowledge, more sense of peace

But what I forgot was

How I may be creating a legacy, but not my destiny

My heart doesn’t feel heavy

rather it feels empty and lifeless

why after a while, everything goes blur

and I forget how to be more, with sass

I have energy, but still feel drained to share

had a car ride after long, and still called no one

it’s like I was driving, and just enjoying the moment

I had anticipations, but with the mindset to run

I wanted to be at home, and still not be seen

I wanted to help everybody, but none to help me

I wanted to keep everyone happy, but no one close to me

I was fine in my world, but still no vision in sight

It’s weird, how I am peaceful yet lonely

Solace is addictive, but apparently not so firm

World is still, but dead make no waves anyway

I need to figure out, what’s wrong with me of late

By Shivani Arora