Just A Shenanigan

By Unnati Naik

What dissolves by itself?

How do you get better feeling … nothing?

Don’t mind the hostility

My words they are merely a shenanigan

I am exhausted, tired

Maybe angry, even upset

And I am capable of running away

You are tying me in knots of dismay

Cried,

Screamed

my misery is not comprehendible?

Or so it seems

shattered from glued up pieces

devastated

Confused

Should I wish to go back to solitude?

Before I come up with any solution

Here it is again,

the abuse

Your words, punches

Your actions, injure and bruise

I was capable of holding in the pain

But now I can't breathe

This is my enough

Or so it feels, for the hundredth time

Is my courage all in vain?

you assault my integrity

As though I am a painted victim

you insult my being

Like slavery had always been a choice I made

We come from different beliefs

But I always focused on your ways

I obeyed and submitted

Time and time again

And still, you mistrust and curse

It is true, that I should go,

For in this relation, I won't have a say

Fear to lose you doesn't last forever

And I did stay,

for I have patience

I had an abundance of kindness and love

And tolerance for my throttled heart

And for I hoped and prayed

Now, I speak my mind,

And you threaten my existence

For sane ones would bang a hammer right away,

But for the insane

Isn't this an acceptable behaviour?

There is no physical assault

There is no visible harm or crime

How could I ever prove being harassed

It's all my fault

It's definitely me versus my abused mind

By Unnati Naik