Jaded - By Justin Beukes

Written By: Justin Beukes

Category: Poetry, Rap, Song

Competition: Global Poetry and Creative Writing Competition 2026

In the compelling poem "Jaded," Justin Beukes, writing under the name Jaded, captures the intricate emotions of self-reflection and internal conflict. As a participant in the Global Poetry and Creative Writing Competition 2026, Beukes invites readers into a world of introspective exploration through his piece in the Poetry category. The poem delves into themes of personal struggle, the search for purpose, and the yearning for understanding, offering a raw and honest portrayal of the poet's inner turmoil.

About the Work

"Jaded" is a poignant reflection on the struggles of self-identity and the quest for meaning. Through a rhythmic structure and candid language reminiscent of rap and song lyrics, Justin Beukes expresses a deep sense of internal conflict and emotional vulnerability. The poem's mood is contemplative, weaving a tapestry of vivid imagery that explores themes of hopelessness and redemption. Beukes' work resonates with anyone who has ever questioned their place in the world.

Jaded

Original Submission by Justin Beukes

Jaded

Jaded.

Am I the only one who feels faded?

Am I the only one who feels hated?

Am I the only one, am I the only one

That feels like nothing’ll change,

Like me and happiness’ll never engage,

Like me and misery are stuck in a cage,

Like me and hopelessness are sharing a stage?

Why do I hate the person I became?

Why does it seem like I’m going insane?

Why does it seem like there isn’t an aim?

Why does it seem like there’s nothing to gain?

Maybe there is, and I’m just going mad.

Maybe there is, and I’m just being sad.

Maybe there is, and I’m just being ruthless.

Maybe there is, and I’m just being clueless.

I don’t really know, I don’t really know.

Maybe that’s the reason why I’m always so low.

I don’t really know, I don’t really know.

Maybe that’s the reason why I’m struggling to grow.

What is the purpose of looking for purpose when what’s on the surface is telling me “no”?

What is the meaning of looking for meaning when what I’ve been seeing is me as a foe?

MXM.

I’m way too young,

Way too young to be feeling this numb,

Way too young to be feeling this old,

Way too young to be feeling this cold.

Sometimes I think that the world would be better if someone like me would’ve never been born.

Sometimes I’m grateful for feeling like nothing and going through something that’s leaving me torn.

Just told my father I love him. I hugged him, went back to my room, then I started to cry.

Started to think about what he’s dealing with that no one’s aware of; it’s hard to deny.

I used to be ignorant, giving him problems that I couldn’t realize were taking a toll.

And what’s even worse is the fact that I knew that I took advantage of a beautiful soul.

Hole is how I’ve been feeling.

I’m like an addict with the way I’ve been dealing.

The music is dope, the lyrics are coke,

And I get high off of whatever I wrote.

Only issue is it doesn’t resolve

Any issue that I struggle to solve.

That’s why I’m distant from being existent.

I’m fearful of living and getting involved.

I don’t expect you to get where I’m at.

I don’t expect you to get what I rap.

I don’t expect you to get what I’m saying, ‘cause what I’m displaying is very exact.

It isn’t for you; I do this for me.

I’m tryna reflect on whatever I see.

I’m tryna reflect on the way I’ve been moving, the way I’ve been viewing the man I should be because-

God, what do I do?

I need a remedy, I need a clue.

I need a melody, I need a stu’-

Nah, what I’m really needing is You.

I wish I could tell You I wasn’t a mess.

I wish I could tell You I wasn’t depressed.

Everyone’s happy and living a life that feels impossible for me to possess.

I’m starting to wonder why I’m even here.

Life is a vehicle I struggle to steer.

Think I should leave it for You to relieve it, ‘cause my way of living doesn’t persevere.

I’m tired of feeling the way that I feel.

It’s probably why I’m resisting to heal.

It’s probably better to stop holding on and give You the power of taking the wheel.

‘Cause I’m too-

About the Competition

The Global Poetry and Creative Writing Competition 2026, hosted by Hashtag Kalakar, is a prestigious event celebrating the diverse voices of writers worldwide. It provides a platform for poets, storytellers, and creative writers to share their unique perspectives and literary expressions. This competition fosters a vibrant community of creativity, encouraging participants to explore the depths of their imagination and craft.

Thank you, Justin Beukes, for sharing your evocative poem "Jaded" with us as part of the Global Poetry and Creative Writing Competition 2026. Your work offers a profound insight into the complexities of the human experience, resonating deeply with readers. We appreciate your contribution and look forward to witnessing your continued journey in the world of poetry.

About Hashtag Kalakar

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