If Only

By Praneet Sarkar

Setting eye on you

Was a sin, I now realise...

For the heart now craves

It's twin, that was you throughout, in disguise.

Why is it when two eyes lock,

The resting heart is stirred by a thrill

And the silent soul finds the door

To a dimension where time stands still?

Why is it that when you look away,

The frozen eyebrow melts into a dome,

The now hollow heart rushes

To invite you back home?

Now the mesmerized mind fantasizes

The beginning of 'something new',

And plays it over and over and over again

Starting with the same, but with endings quite a few.

And yet the heart and the mind clash;

Dissimilarity, discrepancy and disparity stand like a wall.

Without the mind and heart, the eye is blinded;

A pit of hesitation is where I am destined to fall!

Nothing is enough now, it seems....

Not knowing the beginning, nor the end.

The conflict between the mind and the heart;

I am always unable to comprehend.

If only I had the bravery to admit

If only I had the courage to speak

If only I had the ability to convince

If only I could perceive....that I was done being weak.

By Praneet Sarkar