I Realized

By Ibtisam Hussain

You knew me, I felt atleast

You know just the exterior, I realized

There were parts of me fighting,

Struggling, shattering and falling off the roof

You’ll be there, I thought atleast

I was broken, I realized.

No one to express to

No one to tell

No one to fight to

To feel a pain

No one to tell the desire

No one to light the fire

I was drenched and burnt, I realized.

Want to get away

To the dark night

want to shine like a star on the dark night

Want to see the moon in the dark night

Want to feel the essence of the dark side

It was in me- the dark side, I realized.

On the shores of the horizon

Holding a hand

Not of anyone, but of self

Fighting my inner ghost

To leave the sadness

To bring the light

To smell the water

To see the sight

I want to get away from the self, no

But to be one with the self, I realized.

By Ibtisam Hussain