Hope Not A Mistake, Again

By Shivani Arora

Letting go is all I have done

Couldn’t let go of my dream somehow

Buried it deep in my heart

Forgotten how to feel for it anyhow

Been fighting for a year, now where am I

Struggling to let it sustain, or even stay

Please don’t test me anymore, I don’t have much left

My time is running up, and all I can say

Don’t let this be a mistake again

Help me this time out, I have given my all

I know these days, I’ll be back to square one

I swear, I didn’t mean it to happen at all

Just don’t kill my hope, it might kill me too

I am not ready to go back to my old days

I am not meant for that any longer

It's just not right in any fucking way

Give me this, and take anything in return

My life, my love, my looks, my body

If you feel I can’t have it all, I won’t mind

Just let me feel myself complete once and for all

By Shivani Arora