From Heart To Heart

By Amulya Nanda

Why is it

that I don’t feel a thing

no love, no affection

it’s blank within

My heart is not confused

but it’s just scared

it doesn’t want to be

scarred and broken again

It’s the trauma

I live every night

remembering everything

that didn’t go right

Loving you probably never felt right

my stomach always felt so tight

It felt like somebody

had taken a piece away

I was no longer me

and you changed me that way

Today, whenever I try

I can’t love again

it all comes back

and haunts me to the end

Probably I moved on

but mentally I didn’t

I am sorry

but I still love you

even when I shouldn’t

Just this, this is all

I have to say

I still imagine you

next to me,

driving, blasting music

all the way

I still smile

remembering your funny ways

Holding hands together

listening to stories

you would make

This is all

that lets me live through

Writing poetry

because it’s the romantic kind

Why take the pain

of falling in love

and then breaking off ties

Not now,

Not even a bit

I just want to close my eyes

and sleep

till I am all over it

But I am sure

I will be awake soon

smiling again

staring at the moon

feeling those butterflies

all over again

meeting someone

and rewriting my story

sometime again!

By Amulya Nanda