Fondness

By Safura Reshad

All the things he said,

Running through my head,

The sweet gestures of love,

The mighty strength of giving the best.

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The one who did not judge,

The one whom I loved ,

The one who helped me from dawn,

The only one whom I cared about.

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The one whom I thought was sophisticated,

The one who turned out to be suffocating,

The one who was so virulent.

The one who took me for granted.

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The one I loved the most, backstabbed me,

The one I had procrastinated, destructed me,

The one whom I had cared about , turned out to be so venomous that I got poisoned.

The one whom I still love and care about poisons me daily.

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The one I can't ignore , even if he insults me,

The one who is so toxic but I can't forget nor forgive him.

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The one who got close to me to hit on my fellow batchmate ,

The one whom I love, chant stories of their women to me.

The one whom I love,takes advice from me on women.

The one whom I dearly love, told me why her women is not like me,

The one whom I dearly love, looks upon me as I sit numb.

The one whom I wanted to understand my struggle made fun of me.

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The man who was so self absorbed, that he betrayed me.

The one who was so kind,

The one who didn't care what else was going around ,

The one who just cares about himself,

The one who acts like he is a mature person,

The one who has an attitude to keep up with people.

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The one you all can't trust,

The one who's memories are fading away,

The sweet moments that I used to cherish are disappearing away.

The one who insulted me,

The one who commented on my apparel,

The one who sarcastically joked about my body.

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The one I have started to envy,

The one I can't ignore because of feeling guilty,

The one whom I hate and care about.

The one who will always have a special place in my heart.

The one whom I love is death - dealing.

By Safura Reshad