Down,Down,Down

By C.R. Doolan

My body is a capsizing vessel,

Down, down, down, 

I sink into the depths.

Inky blackness greets me, 

With endless promises, 

And careful threats, 

So I let it take me,

Down, down, down,

Because it is what I deserve. 

I let it pull me further and further,

And listen when it warns me, 

To never look up.

So I stay there, 

Down, down, down,

While the whole world twinkles above.

But I don't look, 

Instead I choose to forget about it,

And let the darkness become my home.

Sometimes I get lonely, 

Down, down, down, 

I feel like I'm missing a piece of myself.

Missing the light that contrasts the dark,

Sometimes I wish to go back, 

But the darkness has become my friend.

I wonder if they ever look,

Down, down, down,

And see me beneath the rolling waves.

Being twisted and pulled by the currents,

I wonder if they ever call out my name, 

Or if they even notice that I'm gone.

I'm sick of living,  

Down, down, down, 

Where light never strays.

Where there is no real love or joy, 

No friends or family, 

Only me and my forlornness.

My body is an expansive vessel,

Up, up, up,

I float towards the surface. 

Blaring lights greet me, 

With empty promises,

And careless threats.

So I let them take me, 

Up, up, up,

Because it is what I deserve.

I let them guide me closer and closer,

And listen when they warn me,

To never look down.

So I stay there,

Up, up, up,

While the pool of darkness waits below. 

But I don't look,

Instead I choose to forget about it,

And let the light become my home again. 

Sometimes I get lonely, 

Up, up, up,

I feel like I'm missing a piece of myself.

Missing the dark that contrasts the light,

Sometimes I wish to go back,

But here I have my family and friends. 

I wonder if it ever looks,

Up, up, up,

And sees me living above the waves.

Being twisted and pulled by society, 

I think it calls to me some nights,

Pleading for my return. 

I'm sick of living,

Up, up, up,

Where there is no room for darkness. 

Where there is no understanding,

No shadows to hide in,

Only me and endless expectations. 

My body is a capsizing vessel, 

Down, down, down, 

I sink into the depths.

And as the inky black greets me,  

This time I promise it,

I’ll never look up again.

By C.R. Doolan