Dear, Diary...

By Riddhi Oza

It’s been long since we talked… Since you’ve been drenched with my tears!

How I haven’t told you the secrets and the lies that I’ve been fed with!

And did I tell you about how fast this life is changing?

The last time we talked it was raining heavily since days…but now it all seems calm! Like nothing ever happened!

Perhaps the clouds are at peace…

But I don’t know if my heart will ever be?

The tears have dried up and my heart is exhausted of crying…

So sorry if I couldn’t tell you about the changing tides and the new scars that I try to hide!! Oh of course about my new favourite song of the week!

And of course how it reminds me so much of that guy I told you about!

And how my dreams are being fulfilled but the void in my heart is also growing!

Perhaps I’m still growing!

And thigs are not so good here, but I am learning a lot. I have been feeling out of my skin lately, but I believe that I will be alright.

My friends are growing as well, but growing apart as well. And I have been finding it difficult to understand my identity, but talking to you, makes it all okay. Did I forget to tell you that amongst everyone I’ve written about… The only person I missed the most is YOU!

About how I was craving to write down to you what I feel and cry for once but perhaps I couldn’t for I was unsure whether to tell you about my things? How unfaithful of me!!

I apologize for my betrayal…for breaking the promise that I made to you!

Thank you for staying here even now when even seasons are changing much like people’s minds!

You remain the same!

You listen and listen until I scribble things down and get tired of it and fall asleep on your pages!

And how your warmth would embrace my demons and make me feel good!

In this world, where stars change their position and feelings change by seconds, I am glad to have one thing by my side, which will always be mine… You!

I missed you…and I’m glad to be back to you… to my HOME!

By Riddhi Oza